Damaged

Chapter 37

My eyes opened wide to the surprise of his actions. I didn't push away all I did was stay there. Put. Shocked. "Sorry he's a huge jerk so I did what I did." He confused me so much in that little sentence. But I didn't want him. I wanted Xavier. Do I?

I just wanted to be normal already. Find love. Have friends that don't back stab you. But life isn't normal. And I guess I learned that the hard way. But as I learned a bit more about life the harder it seemed. I want to be gone. Far from here. Far from all of them. 

"Jax!" I heared Selena's voice come from a distance. I broke out of my trance and came back to reality. The horrible reality I lived. "What?" I asked as I made my way to her. "They're here." I looked at her in confusion till I looked over her shoulder and saw them.

I wanted to run. I wanted to hide. But I couldn't. I was too scared to. I was embarrassed that I crashed the car. "Hey." He said. I shut my eyes closed. "Open your eyes man." His voice just gave me even more reason to be embarrassed. "Okay." I opened them slowly to reveal him. "Hey Grandpa." I was just shy and embarrassed about it. "Lets go get you guys on a plane." He pulled out plane tickets and took us into his car.

I looked around and saw that there was only three f us. "Hey and Xavier?" I asked. They shrugged their shoulders up. "You are all useless." I got off the car and called out his name. "Xavier!" I yelled one last time and that is when a person turned. 

I ran to Xavier."Come on we are leaving my Grandpa got us tickets to Florida." I said. He looked at me in disgust. So I did what I could do. Talk to him. "Xavier. I need you. You know and I know I like and want you." I said. "Do I Jax? Do I?" He questioned me. "Yes Xavier. You do know." I pulled him closer to me. "And if.." I cut him off. All I had do was kiss him. "Lets go." He said

"Well at least you two made up." Selena said. "Lets go Grandpa." I said. His hand reached for mine. I became paranoid.DId I want this. My reaction acted faster than my thoughts this time. So I reached also. But as soon as I knew it he was holding me close. "I love you Xavier." I said. "I love you too Jax." He said.