Damaged

Chapter 9

After he tackled me onto his bed one thing had led to the next. By this I mean we took off on a great ride. We kissed for a good 5 minutes then he rolled on top of me. I was scared. The last time I did this I got scared. Was it because I was doing with my best friend? I didn't know. But then I ran to the bathroom the first time. Am I ready to do this? I thought. Was I though. I am only 14. Should I go along with it or tell Xavier,the best guy ever, I wasn't ready. I didn't now what to do.

"Are you ready?" Xavier asked me. I just nodded. "Okay Jax." He said as he reached over to his drawer. He pulled out a package. It was small and the cover was blue. The center looked round. "What's that Xavier?" I asked pulling away. "Don't worry. It's just a condom. I don't want to get a disease. YOu know what I'm saying?" HE asked me. I nodded. I felt a bit better. But not a lot. I thought we were just going to make out. I didn't really think there was going to be physical activity between both of us. "Okay. Let's start." I said gasping. I was nervous. He nodded and leaned in. 

After about a hour later, we finished. I rolled to the side. "Was that amazing or what?" Xavier asked me. I looked over at him. "It could be like this forever." He told me. I looked at him in confusion and then asked him a question. "Really?" I asked him. He nodded. "Well we should go to sleep we have school tomorrow. Goodnight." He told me. He smirked when he finished his sentence. "Goodnight." That's all I had to say. I felt bad. I don't know why though.

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Beep beep! The alarm rang right in my ear. "Wake up sunshine we have a bright day ahead of us!" Xavier said all enthusiastically. I rubbed my eyes and looked all confused. "It's monday?" I said. I complained. I really didn't want to face anyone. Especially not Victor. Xavier was telling me to ignore everyone at school. I was wondering why. But he refused to tell me.

As George dropped us off at school everyone turned at the car. I guess this is what was happening everyday since Xavier came out. I was to nervous to go back. "What's wrong little man?" George asked. This is still the George that picked me of the streets. "I'm  scared to show my face. I ran away and everyone knows that me and your brother have something. I guess I'm tired of being pushed around." I answered. "Well if people do that speak up and if they push or hit you hit them back. Okay?" George told me. He was good influence. I wish I had him around when I was a little kid.

As I got off the car all heads turned to me. All the attention went from playing football to me. Catching up with friends to me. I didn't like it. I kept walking to where Xavier was standing. He looked my way and looked back at his friends. "Hy who do I go and hang out with Xavier?" I asked confidently. But I imagined a different response than what he gave me. "Get out my face rapist. I can't believe my parents let a run away live with us. God I swear they are sometimes so dumb guys. Let's go I don't want to get the GAY germs or disease!" Xavier yelled. I can't believe  my ears. I turned my body to him. I said I loved him. I let him kiss me. I can't believe him.

I walked down to first. I walked in and saw Zander early for once. I remembered exactly what his mom said. I am not allowed to be near him or hang with him. I swear I hate her. His brown hair stayed still even though he was next to the fan. He turned and those exact hazel eyes were the ones I looked into when I asked for forgiveness. The same eyes that I fell in love with before Xavier's blue eyes. "Hey!" He yelled across the class. I brushed past him leaving his high five in the air. He walked towards me as I looked for my note book in my backpack George took me to get. I took out my awesome blue notebook. "Hey why you mad at me?" Zander asked me. He was in confusion. I  just didn't know how to tell him. Tell him that I didn't want to be near him. That I was scared to fall for him and Xavier noticing. Even though he lied to me. 

The teacher gave his lesson as I dozed off. I really didn't like this teacher. He was so boring. I looked up to the clock and saw that there was only a minute left in the class  As i got my backpack to put y notebook  away. As the bell rang Zander ran towards me. "Look I'm sorry if you're mad at me. I'm really sorry for whatever I did?" Zander asked me. I didn't say a word till he bugged the fuck out of me. "Look I don't want to be near you. Because the last time I did I kissed you okay. But I don't like you okay. And I' scared Xavier will catch us. Okay." I said to him. He looked at me as I walked away. I walked and didn't look back. 

In art which was the best period ever. The teacher had us work with on of the persons next to us. Since the person to my left had his best friend next to him I was stuck with whoever was on my right. Xavier. I looked at him and looked away. He just stayed looking at me. I was way to angry to even look at him. "What!?" I scream at him. The whole class turned and looked at me. "Sorry I was just looking at you." Xavier said. I looked at him and just rolled my eyes. "Well stop! I don't want you looking at me. In fact can I get  different partner mister?" I asked him. Xavier just sat there in amazement of how angry I was at him. "Okay mister Jax you can work With.." He looked around the room thinking of who to partner me up with. "He can work with me mister and Larry can work with Xavier." Zander said raising his hand up in the air. "Okay Jax you and Larry switch." The teacher said. I looked over at where Zander was sitting. I rolled my eyes as I reached over for my backpack. I didn't want to work with someone that I hated it. Either way I didn't like the idea of me and Zander working so close. And not with Xavier in the room.

As I moved to the seat next to Zander a guy threw  piece of paper. I leaned over to get it. I unfolded the ball of paper. Have fun runaway. The paper read. I looked at the direction the paper came from. Xavier threw it. I took out a piece of paper and wrote: At least I'm not fake and oh yeah I'm running away from your house and what we had is over! I reached over to my backpack and got the rest of piece of paper I ripped it from. I walked over to the trash can that was next to Xavier. 

As I got closer I accidently dropped the paper that catches his attention. As I walked over to my seat I actually smiled. I looked over my shoulder and saw Xavier reading the note. He looked my way and he was shocked. I mouthed sorry. I laughed inside. I guess Zander caught my attitude. "Why you so happy bro?" HE asked as he drew the layout of our project. I looked over at him and smiled. "Oh nothing." I said. I remembered all the good times me and Zander had like this. "Okay." Zander said as he dropped one hand and squeezed my thigh.

A/n: Hey guys I'll be posting a lot on this story since I'm on break from school. And plus this is one of my favorite stories I'm writing right now. I will write more on the purge. Hopefully I can finish that story so I can put more time on this one. This will be a long book. And I added a image of how Zander looks. I added the song for Jax. I still want to know who you h]guys want to end up together at the end. Well I'll see you on the next chapter. Remember to smile and spread love and peace. I love you guys. Byeeee!