hello
today.....wasn't the greatest day
last night wasn't either
i didnt feel.......safe with myself
it's strange to feel that again
it's like meeting up again with an old toxic friend but you still feel so comfortable around them and like yourself
it's strange
i feel strange
like off put
more than usual
i want it to go away
i know it will
but i want to make it go away myself
so i can feel like i have control over it
which i don't
but i want to feel that way
i try to read to push these thoughts away but today my thoughts just won't leave
i cant focus on the words
they just all jumble together forming the words my thoughts are telling me
i might just write
and write
i hate the feeling that it's in control of me and my body
i've been trying to smile but it feels wrong and gross
like a slimey smile
im sorry for bugging you with
my strange strange brain
~imogen
YOU ARE READING
idk what this is
Randomhey I wanted to start a book of just random things and junk I want to talk about cause I have nO fRiEnDs so if you wanna read I commend you *finger guns* fuck I'm awkward
