Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 8

Harry felt so tired after all the introduction had been made, he still had a concussion and he had been told by the doctors to take things very easy, not to much TV, and limit bright screens as much as possible, he was supposed to rest as much as he could. Harry tried to do as the doctor told him to do, but it was hard, he wanted to find out as much as he could about himself, he wanted to know everything, even if it felt unreal, so much of this looked unreal. He wanted to remember all off this, he wanted to know himself again, It felt so strange to not be able to recall anything from your past. There was nothing that popped up, nothing except Simon. Simon was the only one that had stayed with him the hole time.

"Simon, are you there?" Harry asked as he knocked on Simon's door

"yeah, what's up?" Simon asked as he came to the door and opened it, seeing Harry there looking very unsure off himself

"can I talk to you for a bit? Or is this a bad time, I can just talk to you tomorrow, I'm sorry, It's like 1am, I'll just go to bed" Harry rambled on before Simon could even get a word in.

"Harry, stop, come here, talk to me." Simon said as he opened his door wider so Harry could come in

"am I not bothering you?"

"no"

"are you sure? I can just go and talk to you in the morning"

"Harry, I never go to sleep before 5am, I'm good, I have all night" Simon said smiling at him, witch made Harry feel a bit better about the situation, he just felt like he was a bother.

"what do you want to talk about?" Simon asked as he and Harry sat down on Simon's bed.

"I want to get to know me, you said I make video's online, can you show me, I don't know where they are" Harry said looking a bit embarrassed by his request.

"no problem, you should know that you put up a bit off a front on camera, you are a lot louder on there than you are in real life, so I guess I'm going to start you on your Q&A's or something that gives you a bit off an inside to who you are" Simon said and Harry just nodded, then they watched quite a few group video's so Harry could see the dynamic off the group and there friends. Even if Simon had to pause the video's up to 10 times just to explain an inside joke or who a certain person was and how he knew them, and how they had met, and for how long he had known the person.

"this is so hard, I'm never going to remember all off this" Harry whined as he laid down on the bed in frustration

"it will come back to you"

"But what if it does not, what do I do then?"

"you can't do anything about that, you just need to keep going, we are all here to help you get through this, regardless of you getting your memory back or not."

"I just feel so awkward around everyone, they all know me so well, but I just feel like I'm the lion in the zoo, everyone is looking at me and they know who I am, but they can't tell me. I just have no idea"

"I understand that Harry, I do, but this is just something that you have to get through, life is unfair,but everyone has setbacks, this is your setback and you unfortunately just have to deal with it"

"it feels like more than a setback"

"It does now, but when you learn to cope with things, it will get better, and I have faith in you, never forget that I believe in you."

"thank you Simon, I really appreciate you being here for me" Harry said as tears started to run

"hey, none off that, come here" Simon said as he hugged a clearly upset Harry, hoping that this would make him feel a bit better.

"I just don't know if I can do this" Harry cried out

"you can, I believe in you" Simon whispered toHarry as he cried, he then let him lay down on the bed and let him sleep there,Harry did not want to be alone and Simon had no problem with him sleeping therewith him.