Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 31

Simon was upset, he was very upset to be honest, he had buried himself in work to avoid talking to Harry or just talk to anyone in the Sidemen, he did not want them to know that he was upset or why he was upset, because he felt like he had no right to be this upset.

"Si, want food?" Ethan called as he knocked on the door

"what is the food?" Simon called back

"Tobi and Harry are cooking"

"so we are not having takeaway?" Simon asked as he opened the door

"no, not today, Tobi is trying to put something together, we will just have to wait and see"

"do you know what it is?"

"nope. Not a clue" Ethan said and laughed and with that they both headed downstairs to check out the mayhem that was happening in the kitchen, Harry and Tobi were just laughing and trying there hardest to cook for everyone, Harry was in charge off the eggs and beans, Tobi was doing the sausage and bacon. It was very simple but they were having a lot off fun. They were just dancing around and singing, JJ was in charge of the AUX cable and putting on songs that everyone knew.

"what is going on in here!" Ethan laughed as Harry and Tobi were dancing together laughing there asses off

"making cooking fun" Harry smiled

"I've not seen you smile like this for a long time, welcome back" Ethan said as he hugged Harry and then joined in with the dancing. Simon just watched his boyfriend live it up, dancing around the kitchen floor with Tobi and Ethan while JJ was singing with the music. It was so strange to think about that Harry had no idea that they were together, and that hurt Simon so much as he did not know how to tell him, or if he should even bother to tell him. He did not want Harry to be mad, or sad. It had taken a lot off effort to get Harry back to his happy little self and Simon did not want to ruin that, he did not want to be selfish and ruin everything for Harry, he could not do that to him. 

"what are you thinking about?" Josh asked as he sat down next to Simon, who looked like he was deep in thought, as he was.

"nothing, video idea's mostly" Simon lied

"anything fun planed"

"Not really, I'm going to try to get Callux to do something with me soon, It's been a while since I filmed anything with him or Calfreezy, then maybe Weller or Joe Sugg, so that should be fun, but I have nothing set in stone" Simon told Josh,

"why don't you film with Harry, he is trying to get back into things, and if you have nothing planed, then maybe you should ask him if he is up for it"

"yeah, maybe" Simon said looking down, he just could not film with Harry right now, right now Simon could barely be in the same room as Harry, it was just hurting him to much, he craved his touch and his smell, he just wanted to fall asleep cuddling up to him and wake up to Harry kissing him on the check. Simon could feel the tears starting to try to brake free and he quickly stood up making everyone look at him funny.

"I've got to go" Simon told the others as he ran out off the kitchen

"but we are about to eat, it will be ready in 5 minutes" Harry yelled after him

"NOT HUNGRY" Simon yelled on him way up the stairs as he ran into his bedroom and locked the door behind him, this was going to be difficult for him

"my boyfriend does not even know that I love him" Simon told himself as he laid down on his bed and started crying.