Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 52

Harry's POV

I wake up and Simon is there by my side, I feel very awkward because off earlier today, I reacted badly and I know I hurt him, but I also feel like I have every right to be hurt and confused and sad about the hole situation.

"hey" I say and smile weakly at him

"hey yourself, how are you feeling?"

"I don't really know, I feel so drained right now, I don't really know what I even think anymore"

"what do you mean?" Simon asks me

"I've been having these dreams, and after you told me what went on between us, I've just been so confused, I thought the dreams were wishful thinking or something that I was thinking off, but that would not make any sense, but it might have been real as well, but this is all just to much for me"

"what dreams?" Simon asks me, I know I'm not talking any sense and my words don't come out like I want them to, I want to make myself clear, but I just can't seam to get the right words out, or in the right order.

"I've been having dreams off me and you together, we were just laying in bed, side by side, and I just felt so good, It had this calm energy all over, and it was just nice, and nothing like I've been feeling now for the longest time now, I thought that I just needed to relax, but I guess this were memory's that were coming through, or something like that"

"and how do you feel about that?"

"I don't really know, I just feel like I'm not in tune with my mind anymore, and everything is just confusing and hard right now"

"so you need some time to get your head strait, like you told me before"

"yeah I do need some time to figure things out for myself, but I don't want to do it alone, I want you guys to be there with me, I don't think I can do this alone, I've been trying but it just does not work"

"and I will be here for you, every step off the way" Simon smiles as he takes my hand into his, and I feel my body relaxing, for the first time in ages I don't feel like I'm drowning under the pressure.

"thank you Simon, it means a lot to me"

"you are very welcome, now try to stay awake so you will be able to sleep through the night during the sleep study" Simon smiles as he hands me the remote and tells me to pick something, I just smile and take the remote, I look over to the monitor, and I see my blood pressure has dropped, it is going down to normal, maybe I need Simon more than I thought I did, maybe I should not try to fight this, maybe I should just see where this goes, my body clearly knows more than my mind does, and this time I'm not gonna fight it.