Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 13

Even though Harry had gotten the all clear from the doctor, his memory was not there yet, he still did not remember anything. He was still feeling insecure about himself and how to act around the other guys, he felt like they were annoyed at him for not remembering anything, like he was bothering them, and that made Harry feel like they never liked him in the first place. Everything was just added on top off another thing and Harry was feeling like crap.

"there is pizza downstairs if you want" Josh said as he knocked on Harry's door, Simon was filming so Harry was just locked away in his room, he was a bit scared off the other guys, JJ and Ethan were so loud all the time, Tobi and Vikk were a bit quiet around him, Josh was nice, but he did not really know him much.

"yeah, thanks" Harry whispered as he followed Josh downstairs, everyone was there except Simon, and as he walked in everyone were just laughing and having fun, talking about other people and video ideas and all that, then when Harry walked into the room everyone just went quiet, they did not know how to act around Harry, but that just made things way more awkward than they needed to be, and Harry felt like it was all his fault, that he was the one that was making everything awkward.

"hey Harry" Vikk smiled at him

"hey" Harry whispered

"how are you feeling?" Vikk asked again

"yeah, fine"

"have you posted this online yet?" JJ asked

"do you mean my memory loss, is that the this" Harry asked a bit annoyed

"sorry, I will shut up" JJ said, rolling his eyes, he should not have done that, but he was a bit annoyed at Harry.

"no, tell me what you think, tell me what I'm doing wrong?" Harry asked

"you are not even trying to get to know us, you just sit in your room and stay quiet, do you even want to get to know us?" JJ yelled at him as Harry looked shocked as this came out off nowhere,

"JJ stop" Vikk begged as he Ethan and Tobi looked shocked, Josh grabbed Harry into a hug as he looked like he was going to run

"Why are you not trying? We used to be your best friends and now you are acting like you don't know us at all, we have all introduced ourselves to you, you need to make some effort to!" JJ said, he was annoyed it was clear 

"I don't know you, I feel like you are strangers, and I can't help it, I don't know you at all" Harry whispered out

"then why are you not trying?"

"I just feel like I am in the way, I feel like I'm bothering everyone, and you have not even tried to talk to me, why are you not trying, how is everything my fault?" Harry asked, upset,

"but you are not in the way, this is in no way your fault" Ethan said as he stood up and he tried to hug Harry, but Harry just stepped away, he clearly did not want to be hugged right now

"you just don't understand, I can't just act like you know me, I feel like you are strangers, I don't want to feel that way, but I just do, I have known you guys for a week now, and you barely talk to me, and if you do, it feels awkward, I don't understand how it can be so awkward if you are supposed to be my best friends, I just want everything to be normal, but it's just not, and I know my memory loss has a lot to do with it, you just keep pushing me, like I owe you something, I can't just flip a switch and make everything like it was, I can't just make myself remember, It does not work that way." Harry vented before he ran upstairs again, Vikk following him

"good job JJ, now he feels like shit" Ethan said, shaking his head

"well, don't worry, I feel like shit to" JJ said

"you need to talk to him"

"No, I'm just going to let him cool off, hopefully he starts to make more off an effort" JJ said as he walked away from the kitchen table,

"JJ is only going to make it worse with that attitude" Tobi sighed

"We need to do something, before everything goes to shit " Ethan said as he walked upstairs to talk to Simon and Tobi and Josh walked off to find JJ. They were going to try and sort things out.