Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 46

Simon's POV

"what?" Harry says as he looks stunned, I just hope he does not freak out on me, that would be the worst thing that could happen, but right now, I do think it's the most likely outcome.

"I'm in love with you, I've been in love with you for quite a vile now, I never realized how much until the day that I thought I would lose you forever, I was so worried about you, and then you could not remember anything, but somehow you trusted me, and I fell more in love with you, and it has nothing to do with the fact that you lost your memory, I just never realized how much I actually did care for you until that moment, I just love you"

"why could you not just say that strait away?" he asks me and he looks upset, he looks like he is about to cry again, I must admit, I feel like I'm about to burst into tears myself, this is much harder than I thought it would be.

"because there is more" I say as I look down

"more?"

"we actually got together, like we started dating, we went to Thorpe park, just the two off us, and you remembered the kiss you gave me for the vlog, you remembered it, and we were so happy, then we kissed, and you told me that you liked me, and I asked you to be my boyfriend and you said yes, but you did not want the others to know, only JJ knew before yesterday, because I told him the night that we went looking for you, when you ran out off the house"

"but I'm not gay" Harry said stunned, he looks like he is about to faint, his face just went pale white and he clearly does not know what to do, or what to say, this was to much for him, I should have known, I should have eased him into it, but I had to go full force, I pushed to hard, like I always do.

"so you have no feelings towards me?" I asked and now it was my turn to get a bit upset

"I like you, as a friend, I think, I don't know" Harry tells me as he just looks down

"you don't know?"

"I DON'T KNOW" Harry screams at me

"calm down" I tell him, shocked by his sudden outburst off anger

"I don't know what is going on, I don't think I'm gay, I've never looked at guys that way before, I just don't understand, I don't know what I feel"

"want me to leave" I ask and he just looks at me and then he just nods, shattering my heart in the process, that was not the outcome that I wanted, I wanted him to tell me to stay so we could talk about it. 

"I need some space" Harry tells me as I see the tears about to fall from the corner off his eyes, I can see how upset he is, and I am as well, this did not go to plan, he just shut down on me, he did not remember anything, this had not gotten any off his feelings back like I had hoped it would, I had hoped that he would just remember all off those feelings and everything would be OK, but life can't be simple, I guess I have to do this the hard way, and maybe he will remember someday, but I guess this relationship is over, maybe for good. With that I just walk out and point Vikk to go inside again, I take one look inside before I leave and Harry is crying and hugging Vikk, and the nurses are about to give him something to calm down I think, I should just have kept my mouth shut, I just keep making life harder for him. 

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