Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 29

Harry was just looking at his YouTube page when there was a knock on the door. Snapping Harry out off his thoughts 

"who is it?" Harry asked

"me, Vikk"

"come in" Harry called back and he did sitting down on Harry's bed, telling him to come over there and sit down with him. 

"how are you feeling?" Vikk asked

"good I guess"

"are you sure" Vikk asked and Harry just nodded. Staying silent for a little while before he asked

"Vikk can you tell me one thing"

"yeah what?"

"can you tell me what happened in the last month? Have I said something about this online or what? What have I done and not done?" Harry asked

"no you have not tweeted or uploaded anything about your accident, Simon put up a video about you being ill, and that you would be back in a few weeks while you recovered, but you have not said anything about it yourself, even if we were telling you to"

"do you think I should?" I ask

"it's up to you mate"

"I know, but what do you think I should do, I want to know" Harry asked Vikk

"I think you should try to get back into things, I think you owe everyone an explanation on what has been going on, everyone will support you, because you have had a very tough time and there is no easy fix for amnesia, the fact that you got everything back except the last month in just one go is a miracle, the doctors told us that it might take years for your memory to return fully."

"does he think I will remember the last month?" Harry asked

"no, the doctors told us that that time was probably gone for good, he said that it was very unlikely that you will recall anything from that time" Vikk told Harry who just nodded, clearly deep in thought as he did not really know what what he was doing. 

"why are you all so awkward around me?" Harry then asked

"I don't know, this is just a bit strange to us, we will get back to normal in no time, I promise" Vikk tells Harry as he gives him a massive hug.

"I just don't like it, I feel like I'm a zoo animal or something and it's OK for everyone to just stare at me, I just don't want that to be the new normal, but I also know that I have changed a bit, even if I don't want to admit that, I don't know if I can go back to who I was before this all happened, I don't feel the same, something changed and I just don't know what it is, there is just something missing and I just want to figure it out."

"people change all the time Harry, and I know that, and the guys know that as well, no one blames you for anything that has happened"

"but what has happened? Did I do something wrong?"

"No, we just had to walk on eggshells around you a lot off the time, because it was very easy to make you upset, but we understood why you were this emotional, you did not even know us and we were telling you all these things that you should know but you had no clue, it got to much at times, and you also had a concussion and it was just hard for everyone, but we can get over all off that now that you are back" Vikk smiled and Harry just nodded, hugging Vikk close

"thank you"

"for what?"

"being here for me" Harry said as he tightened the hug. 

"my pleasure!"