Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 22

Me and JJ drive around the neighborhood and look around for anything that is out off the ordinary, I am so worried, I feel sick and I am sure that I could easily brake down and cry at any moment, my boyfriend is missing, and I can't tell anyone that he is my boyfriend, I don't know what I should do, I just need to find him, I should have just shut my stupid mouth and let him vent, this is all my fault, if he is hurt or worse dead then I will never forgive myself, I cant forgive myself if anything happens to him, this is all my fault. I need to find him, I will not sleep until he is back in my arms.

"Simon are you OK?"

"No, I just need to find him, I will be OK when he is home"

"but are you OK, we are all worried, but you look like you are about to brake down"

"because I am JJ"

"is there something going on that you want to tell me about?" JJ asks, he understands me so well, maybe to well, we have known each other for so long now.

"No, I just need to find him, this is all my fault"

"don't say that, let's just keep on looking we still have what 30 minutes until we need to be back at the house"

"should we walk for a bit in this park here?" I suggest as we drive past a park.

"let's come back here later, when we go out again, I only have my phone and I don't want it to run out off battery by using the flashlight to much, we should have taken flash lights with us"

"you are right, and we can't scan the park in 20 minutes and be back at the house at the time that we are supposed to be back at. But we need to check out that park, and every other park nearby, I think parks are a likely place to go" I ramble on, mostly to myself as JJ drives on, he is just looking around to see if he spots Harry, this is actually like looking for a needle in a haystack, the what are the odds off us finding him.

"We need to get back" JJ tells me as we have been driving around for almost an hour, we are going back to the house, and no one has found Harry yet as no one has called me or JJ. I just start crying

"hey man none off that, we will find him"

"will it be to late then?" I ask as I just make myself cry harder

"don't think like that man, he will be alright, he is strong, he will probably go to someone's home and ask to use the phone"

"you don't know that, what if something happened?" I cry out

"let's not think that way alright" JJ tries to talk me down

"I need him to be alright, I need to tell him that I'm sorry for overreacting, and I need to tell him that I love him"

"what?" JJ asked shocked and I realize strait away that I fucked up, now I need to explain myself to JJ.