Trust Me (Minishaw)

Ch. 50

Harry's POV

They've told me that I need to rest, I'm overworking my brain and I need to calm down, but they can't drug me up because I have the sleep study tonight, and I need that to go well.

"you need to calm down Harry, you need to take deep breaths, slowly in your nose and out off your mouth" the nurses tell me as my blood pressure is sky high and I'm on the verge of hyperventilating

"I can't, there is just so much going on, I just can't shut my brain down" I whisper, I can't help but feel that I'm doing everything wrong and that stresses me out even more.

"let us call someone for you"

"there is no one to call, I asked them to leave me alone, they wont come back" I tell them

"but the handsome blonde boy, he was pushing so hard to see you last night, he was very worried about you, can I call him for you"

"no, I don't want any off them here, I don't want to talk about it"

"talk about what?"

"him, Simon, he likes me, I don't want to talk about it" I say as she hands me a paper bag to breath into, I feel like I'm having a panic attack and they can clearly see that something is not right

"call Jessica, maybe she can calm him down" one off the nurses tells the other one and then a few minutes later the shrink walks back into my room and she sits down in the chair beside me.

"tell me what you need to calm down" she tells me

"I don't know what I need" I tell her

"you do, but you might just be to afraid to admit it to yourself"

"I don't know what I need" I tell her again

"yes you do"

"I can't do this"

"yes you can, you are so brave and so strong, you need to take deep breaths and focus on what you need to get better, and tell me what that is"

"I can't"

"why?" she asks me,

"I don't know if it's real, it can't be real, I don't know what happened and it freaks me out" I tell her as I'm trying to breath into the paper bag that I've been given, but I can't breath properly, I feel light headed and I feel sick, this is just to much for me, this day has been way to much for me, there is so much pressure on me and I feel like the room is about to close in on me.

"what happened Harry, you need to tell me what happened, you can trust me, I'm only here to help you, now tell me what you need, who can calm you down?"

"Simon"