Painful - A Jacksepticeye x Depressed Reader FanFiction

One

(y/n)'s pov.

I unlocked the door of my apartment and threw my backpack against the wall. I closed my door and took my shoes off. It was just another day. Another day being bullied in school and hated for what I am. I sat down on my bed and opened Twitter. I scrolled down the comments of my last Tweet and replied to a few of them. Suddenly I got a lot of messages on every Social Media I had. 

"Congratulation to 1 Million subscribers!" I immediately opened YouTube and looked at my subscriber counter. 

I had to put my phone on silent mode cause I couldn't take that Iphone sounds anymore. "I did it!", I screamed. Finally. I took my camera and started recording:

"Hello guys. Thank you so much for 1 Million subscribers. I'm so happy we finally made it. For celebration I'll do a little live-stream at 7 pm. Just write your questions in the comments down here and I'll answer them later."

I really tried to smile. I was really happy about the milestone I reached. But I always thought about the words my classmates said: "Nobody will ever like you if they meet you in Real Life. You are ugly and dumb and you not even deserve being alive. Why don't you just kill yourself?" The words were going through my head. I wanted to cry so bad. But I tried to keep my head up just 'til the livestream ends. 

~time skip~

I went to the kitchen and filled my bottle for the livestream. I got really nervous. I took some cookies with me and went back to my room. I went live.

"Hello guys. It's me (y/n). Thank you so much for 1 million subs. I'm really happy about that. Anyway, let's start with the questions. 'Where do you live?' I live in Ireland. I moved here half a year ago. My apartment still looks kinda messy as you can see in my apartment tour that I uploaded two months ago. 'Where did you grow up?' I grew up in (y/c). 'Who's your favorite YouTuber?' Jacksepticeye." I saw so much comments about the fact that Jack is my favorite YouTuber. I blushed a little. A lot of people already knew cause I answered that question a lot of times already. And I retweeted a lot of Sean's things. 

~time skip~

"Okay. One last question", I said after one hour of steaming. I scrolled down the comments and saw one with a familiar icon. I looked closer and read the name of the person. "No way!", I screamed. 

It was a question from jacksepticeye.