Painful - A Jacksepticeye x Depressed Reader FanFiction

Twenty-seven

~Three months time skip~

(y/n) pov.

"Hey, are you okay?", Sean asked me. It was early in the morning and I was sitting on the floor next to the heater. "Yeah", I said and wiped away some tears, "I'm fine." "What happened?", he asked taking a seat next to me. "It's just...my mum called. Cindy, our cat, died and now she is upset and I don't like her being sad." "Did you know Cindy?" "A little...but I'm not upset she is dead. It's just...I feel like everything is falling apart lately. I feel like I lose everything." "Look at me! Everything is going to be okay. Nothing is falling apart. I will always be here for you." "Sometimes I just feel so lost in this world...You are the only thing left. I cannot have the rock pulled of under me again!" "I love you. You know I would never hurt you. I will always be here if you need me." "I'm just so scared." "Of what?" "Life...Everytime something good happens...something goes wrong." I looked on the floor. "Maybe I don't deserve happiness." "That's so not true." "Leave me alone please." "(y/n) look at me." "I want to be alone." "Now you are acting like a child...Now look, please." "Okay, what is is? Some meaningful life lesson I have not heard yet." "Why are you so grumpy now?" "I don't know...I want to be alone for a moment." "Okay fine", Sean said and stood up. "But don't thing about doing something stupid...Please." "I won't. I promise." 

Jack's pov. 

I went into my recording room and smashed some books against the wall. I was so nervous. "Is she okay? Will she hurt herself? What can I do?", I thought. I sat down on my chair. I saw a message from Robin. "Hey, here are your files. Is everything okay? You did not record much the last few days." "Yeah, I spent a lot of time with (y/n). I'll record tomorrow." I peaked through the window. (y/n) was still sitting next to the heater, howling out her eyes. I got so mad. "Why can't  I help her? Why can't I make her happy? I am a loser. I can't even make the girl I love smile." I looked at the floor. 

Suddenly it knocked on the door. "Sean, do you have time. We need to talk", (y/n) said with a silent, sad voice. I opened up the door. "What is it?" "I am sorry...I shouldn't have told you to go...you just wanted to help me and I pushed you away...and that was not fair." "It's okay...you wanted to be alone and I didn't respect that...because I was afraid of what you would do." "I know...and I understand. But believe me...I can be left alone...even when I'm upset." I nodded. "I know you can...I believe you. Even though I was a little afraid." "I promised not to do something bad...and I never break a promise." "Then promise me something else." She looked at me and nodded. I took her hand. "Promise me you won't kill yourself...Like ever...Even if things get worse and you feel like you are alone in this word." "Sean..." "No, you are not saying now that you can't promise me." "I can't. I am a mess and you know that...Please, accept that as an answer." "I won't...(y/n) you might not know, so I tell you: YOU are the best girlfriend I can think about...like ever. I will never find someone like you again...So I can't lose you. The last three months were the best of my life...actually not just the last 3 months...my life is literally perfect since I met you." She started crying. She didn't said anything and hugged me. She cried so hard that I was afraid she might choke on her own tears. "Please calm down", I said calmly and tapped her shoulder. "I...Promise...", she said slowly.