Painful - A Jacksepticeye x Depressed Reader FanFiction

Twenty

~time skip~

(y/n)'s pov.

I grabbed a bag and packed all the things I needed for the night.  I was so glad Jack asked me to stay at his place. I checked everything in my bag. "Keys, phone, headphones, new clothes for tomorrow morning...", I said to myself. I grabbed my schoolbag as well and we left my apartment. 

Jack's pov.

I found some old books. They looked like nobody touched them in years. "(y/n) 2010 London". Obviously it was a family photo book. I took it out of the cupboard and looked through it. (y/n) was much younger - 6-7 years. But she looked happy. Her family was in London with some school friends of (y/n). I would give everything  if I could make her that happy as she was back then.

I was so absorbed by the pictures that I didn't realize that (y/n) was entering the room. "What are you doing?", she asked nervously. I closed the photo book. She was standing in front of me and her look was very angry. "Are you serious?! You looked through my personal stuff? And I should trust you? Honestly, just fuck you Sean." She was really mad and was about to cry. She just turn around and went away.

I needed a few seconds to realize what just happened. Then I started to run after her. "(y/n)! Wait!" She increased her speed. "Leave me alone Sean!" "I'm sorry", I said and grabbed her arm. She stopped. "You are always sorry. Why aren't you think about something before doing it?", she said. "That's rich, coming from you! You cut yourself and don't think about me and how much you hurt me by doing it", it burst out of me. I saw the shocked expression on her face. "Do you think it was easy to know it without telling you. I wanted to protect you so I never said a word about it. But it killed me. Every time you entered your apartment I knew, you'd do it again and I could do nothing against it." "Why didn't you talk to me about it?" "I thought you might hate me. It was your secret. Knowing it was so personal. It was like reading your diary." "And I never told you about it because I thought you might hate me." We both took a deep breath and calmed down. "I'm sorry for looking at your pictures." "Just never do it again. Promise not to wander around in my past again." "Why do you make such a secret about it?" I tried to find out a little bit more. There must be a reason why she hides her past. "You won't understand." She tried to push my hand away. "Let me go Sean!", she said. "Oh my god (y/n). You are sometimes so stubborn." She managed to free her arm and went a few steps away from me. "Then why are you still here?", she screamed at me. "Because I love you!", I screamed back. "I love you too!" We both just starred at each other. The mood was very tense. "I don't want to fight with you", she said. " Neither do. I", I said. So she went back to her apartment to get her stuff and then we walked to my apartment.