Rewriting Jroths Fuck Ups (CLEXA)

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

After the confrontation with the small group of Azgeda, Clarke went to go and check up with Lexa. Clarke had an even greater confidence in Lexa after what had happened. Most of the Azgeda only followed Nia out of fear so they had little loyalty, which the brunette exploited earlier. Clarke walked into the commanders tent to find her looking over maps.

"Hello Clarke." Lexa greeted never shifting her focus from the maps she was examining.

"Hey Lex, are you okay?"

"Im just really stressed I am fine." Lexa said abruptly.

"Just let me know if you need anything."

"I will." Lexa said curtly.

Sensing Lexa wasnt in the mood to talk, Clarke made her way to her mother, slightly pissed off at Lexa and in a bad mood.

Clarke and Abby sat in the older Griffins tent waiting for their evening meal for a while in an awkward and tense silence.

"What is Lexa going to do with the Ice nation man?" Abby  broke the tense silence by questioned her daughter.

"I dont know, mom." She answered. It wasnt a lie, she didnt know. But she had a feeling that she wouldnt like what was going to happen so she tried to avoid thinking about the subject. The blonde really wasnt in teh mood to talk about Lexa right now. Clarke thought that Abby  had come to accept Lexa  as her  girlfriend, but she knew her mother did not approve of Lexas actions of the commander. The younger girl could tell that her mother was trying to get to that subject even though Clarke really didnt want to go there. It was only going to end in an argument

"Given the chance, Lexa would leave us all to die again to save her people."

Clarke sighed. She knew the truth, Lexa would do it, but then again Clarke would do it to Lexa to if it came down to it.

 Abby continued, "You know that right. I know Lexa is a nice girl but the commander isn't."

"I dont care if you approve or not and I dont care what you think about her," Clarke interrupted, getting frustrated. "I need her. She understands the choices I have to make and the burdens I carry and I for her. That is something that no one else can do because no one else understands, not even you. I know that no matter what happens she will understand and she will be there for me." No matter how pissed she was she knew it was true.

"Her people will always come first Clarke! She butchers people for information. She kills human beings without a second thought. You saw what she was going to do to Finn and Raven. She was going to kill them them in cold blood and she will do that to many more people. Thats who she is." Abby raised her voice. She was concerned for Clarke. Abby was afraid that she was going to get hurt. There was no doubt that Clarke and Lexa loved each other, but in the world in which they lived, she feared that that wouldnt be enough. "Lexa was raised to be a killer and to think with her head and not her heart. You are different Clarke, you care about everyone, you value everyones life."

"So does Lexa! But she is responsible for hundreds of thousands of people. If she made decisions with her heart she would not have united the 13 clans and there would be no peace!"

"We are at war. There is no peace. Thousands of people have been sacrificed for nothing!" Abby argued. They could both tell that it was escalating quickly but neither of them were willing to admit defeat.

"This is what I mean. You do not understand! We are not on the Ark anymore mom. Things work differently now and if you cant except that, your going to be buried with it." With that, Clarke stormed out of her mothers tent. She couldnt believe that she still held grudges against Lexa. Clarke thought that they were finally getting along but now she could see that her mother was only accepting because if she wasnt she was going to loose her daughter.

Clarke went back to the tent where she and her friends were staying. When she entered, she saw Lincoln on a table in the middle of the tent. His lip was bleeding, his eye was almost swollen shut and what looked like a broken arm. She then looked to Octavia who was in abetter condition but still hurt, she had bruises all over her face which a split lip.

"What happened? Are you guys okay?" Clarke question worriedly, hurrying over to where Lincoln was.

"Some grounder attacked them. They said that Lincoln was traitor." Bellamy explained.

Clarke took a closer look at Lincolns arm, "Raven, can you get my mom. His arm is definitely broken and needs to be set as soon as possible."

"Your wish is my command, Princess." Raven replied, exiting the tent.

"I am going to talk to Lexa." Clarke told them all. Her anger was a building up and her friends could tell so they just nodded.

The blonde made her way to Lexas tent. When she got there, she tried to enter but Lexas guards stopped her, "Heda requested that no one enters."

Clarke rolled her eyes, trying to hold back her anger unsuccessfully, "Can you please tell your Commander that Clarke has an urgent matter to discuss."

The smaller guard entered the tent. Clarke was about to loose it. She was so pissed. About thirty seconds later the guard returned, "Heda had granted your entrance."

"Thank you." Clarke said as calm as she could at this point in time. As soon as she passed through the tent flaps she was greeted by Lexa.

"Clarke, what is it that you want to discuss?"

"Some of your warriors attacked Lincoln and Octavia." Clarke said trying to keep her cool.

"There is nothing I can do about that. Lincoln is a traitor, he should not be here." Lexa brushed it off.

That was it. Clarke was so sick of everyone's bullshit, "Well I suggest that you do something to keep your shit together, because if my people hear about your people beating them up, we are not going to be able to stick this fucking truce back together. "

Lexa scoffed, "Keep my shit together? You are the one who has been openly questioning my authority. If people see you doing that then they will think that you control me and they will try and kill both of us and destroy everything I have worked for." This was the first time that Clarke had seen Lexa so openly emotional.

"I am not the one that wants to keep everything that we are doing a secret. Maybe if you actually tried to come and see me I wouldn't make you look so weak, Commander." Clarke spat out her title like poison.

Hurt flashed across Lexas face before it fell completely blank of emotions. Lexa said absolutely nothing and kept her expression stone cold as she just stared at Clarke.

"Oh for fucks sake Lexa!" Clarke had absolutely lost her shit. The combination of her mother changing her mind, her friends getting beaten and Lexa being an asshole was driving the blonde mad. She pushed Lexa back up against the table behind her, getting in her personal space. Lexa still conveyed nothing which just added to Clarkes frustration, "You cant just shut off every time you nearly feel something." Clarke new it was a low blow but she kept going, "If you cant act less like a horses ass and more like a human I cant keep doing whatever the fuck this is." The blonde gestured between them.

Clarke then stormed out of the tent and to the main area of camp were the food was most likely about to be served. She just really didn't feel like talking to anyone. The blonde felt her eyes fill up with tears but she refused to let them fall. She loved Lexa but everything was getting too difficult. They had to keep it a secret and she didn't even know how they could still be together because there was no doubt that after the war was over, Clarke would have to go back to her people.