In My Head

Cut

Dear all of those who have cut or self harmed, I understand heres some advice from one with the scars to another,

                     Do they not notice as i hide underneath my skin. the marks are the only ways in. The only way to relieve the pain bottled up inside. is to split the skin that holds it captive everything disappears. no more fears. until the pain hits. it hurts to be free. It hurts to be me. I cant stand the pain I cause but without it i feel alone. Its an escape, not good to keep feelings bottled up. Tears mixed with red stain the pillows on my bed. No one understands why i cause the pain. It doesn't hurt anymore i just feel relief but it leaves the scars. the one everyone knows you caused.  The scars are another thing to be bullied for even if your 9 months clean the scars linger and call you back to make the same mistakes again you fight it but it is hard. The only thing keeping me from drowning are my friends. They are my life boat keeping me afloat. but if they leave I know for sure. I will sink below the surface and never come back up. Don't let me sink hold me up because i think i can make after all, I have made it this far.

Love,

Lizzy