The sky touched my soul as I flew above the land I once knew. Yes, it had held much pain for me but in its embrace lied lessons I needed to learn. It held healing of a kind not known before. I had briefly returned but memories flooded my mind as the scent once again filled my lungs. A pounding head and racing mind flooded my very existence. Then a rush of peace set over me once again. A fleeting moment but enough to still the storm in my heart, though momentarily. Do I long for the world I hated? Is it because that was an ounce of stability on stormy seas?
Or was I addicted to the pain? Perhaps it was all, mixed together in yet another whirlwind of uncertainty. I will never truly know. Something within me longs for for the life I once had but is it just a longing for freedom from the chains that now bind me? Again that knowledge slips away as quickly as the question revealed itself from the darkness of my broken mind. What have I become? What am I becoming? The real question is do I like it? Perhaps I do. Boldness now present where it lacked before, but is it a trait sought after? Will it bring more pain to my already broken heart, fractured more by time? Questions plague me and all the distraction I find is the hum of the planes engine roaring in my ears. I take solace in the knowledge death will find me and I will be free of the chains masked as questions and people. Will I ever know who I truly am?
- Blake Nicholas Xavior
- 8/19/16
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Depths of my mind
RandomCompilation of things ive written. PLease don't steal and if you want to use it just ask :) Please give it a read. There are darker themes within this, so please be aware of that.
