Maybe

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Maybe I'm stupid. I know that some of Mattie's friends can be rough, and I don't want a repeat of the party. But I don't care, I still want him.

Maybe iI'm tired. I haven't gotten any sleep since I've started seeing Mattie again. Still, if  I  have to stay up all night to stay with him, I will.

Maybe I'm hopeful. I hope. I pray. I pray I can stay with Mattie. I just want him next me. I want to feel his breath on my neck.

I want him to make me feel alive.

My thoughts are suddenly cut off as my younger sister Tori walks in. She's decked with bangles and hoop earrings. I guess it runs in the family. 

"Ay, what's up gollum?" I asked, jokingly.

"I'm tired. Life sucks. Eighth grade sucks. Aaron sucks. Literally. I just found out he's gay."

"Life, Tor. You'll find that it only gets worse."

"Ugh. Also, we're meeting the mayor tomorrow. I don't know why. Mom just texted and said that."

"I love that his kids are mixed race. It makes me alive."

"You are such a retard."

"Ay, shut up. Gollum."

"Whatever. So, how's Mattie?"

"He's... good. He's good."

"Oh my god, have you guys hooked up?!"

"Tori!"

"Well have you?"

"No, not yet..."

"Fine then. Don't tell me. I'll just be on my way." Tori left the room with a flourish.

I thought hard about out conversation. The mayor, cool.

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