3am thoughts// olive5soselsd

scared.

I know this girl.

she was so lovely.

she changed.

we met about 4 years ago.

and met again a few months ago.

after 4 years.

but.

now im scared of her.

she self-harms.

and I want to help her.

but she just tells me to leave it, and its just for fun.

no.

I say.

no.

she laughs.

she bought a lighter.

and im fucking terrified.

my social anxiety and slight-depression kill me.

and I dont want it to happen to other people.

theyre so happy.

and living, and free.

im just...

here.

she scares me so much.

but I mean so much to her.

thats what she told me.

but.

i dont know.

maddi.

if you are reading this, please.

please.

stop.

for me, paige and abbie and zoe.

I cant deal with you anymore.

sorry.