It's an ordinary day for the us...
Gello's out for his work...I'm left with the kids....
ganto nanaman takbo ng buhay namin...not to mention mag babagong taon nanaman bukas...
bakit ba sunod sunod ang holidays kapag December?? and weird no?
"Mom..this is circle.." sabi ni Ria-Nie sakin habang pinakikita yung circle na blocks niya..
she's recovery very well...my mom suggested na dalhin ko siya sa doctor para mas mapadali pero short ako sa budget sa ngayon..still looking for a chance para makausap si Gello...
and about that...
he's avoiding me since Christmas...
he's playing with the kids, talking with them, eating dinner with us...but he never talk to me or what so ever...
It's killing me....
killing me little by little...
I'm trying really hard to talk to him...
to make this marriage work...pero, parang tama siya...wala na talaga atang pag-asa ang pag sasama namin...
pero looking at the kids....they're enjoying Gello's company, kaya hindi ko yun iaalis sakanila...I've been selfish for two years for the three of them...soooo..I think this is the time for the kids.
"And mom...this is square...daddy thought me sqaure." pag bibida ni RIa-Nie...She never forgets that day when Gello thought her what is square and the night she kisses her daddy good night...
she's so proud of it too...
"you're so good Iya-Ni!" cheer naman ni Dino, "but mom..I need your help for this piece." sabi ni Dino na bumubuo nung puzzle na regalo ni Ivan sakanya.
"sure...wait, let me keep this first." sagot ko sknya at tiniklop yung mga bankbooks and notebooks na kung saan ko nilalagay yung mga calculations ng mga gastusin namin...and I played with the kids for the whole day.
I honestly don't know where to hold right now, buti nung hindi kami naka tira dito ki Gello.. I'm living with Richard around and i can leave the kids to him whenever and mom whene home naman nung nag kasakit si Ria-Nie...ngayon, there's no one to help me...I have a husband around who doesn't talk to me, even just a single word.
I think I really need to talk to Gello about this...
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pero ano pa ngaba ang kakauwian ng pag-uusap na plano ko...
"So you want to move to take away the kids away from me AGAIN!!?" sigaw niya sakin.
"Gello, that's not what I meant..."
"So what do you want?!!Heck Pricilla...ikaw ang may gustong lumipat dito at ngayon, aalis ka nanaman...nakakagulo ka ng buhay ng may buhay...nakita mo ba kung gaano ka ayo yung buhay ko ng hindi ka sakin nag papakita? ginulo mo...pinatira kita dito....tapos pag katapos mong gulohin, you want to go back to states and bring the kids!! that's bullsht!" sigaw niya sakin...
"Gello, can we calm down?" tanong ko, pero hindi niya ako pinansin...he still have his balck aura around him.
"ano ba talagang gusto mo!? ang guluhin lang ang buhay ko?" naiinis niyang tanong sakin.
"Nooo..that's not what I want...I came here for the kids..para makilala ka nila as their father...Gello, I'm not that selfish..." sagot ko sknya habang tumutulo nanaman mga luha ko.
