"can we talk" mahina kong tawag ng pansin niya...
kakadating lang ni Gello and it's 2:00 in the morning, sinadya ko talaga siyang kausapin para sa plano ko...I told you, i can swallow my own pride as a mother and as a wife balikan lang ako ng asawa ko.
"I'm tired." he replied.
"Gello, madali lang...this is for the kids." pilit ko sknya, he let go a deep sigh na parang naiinis siya sa pag pipilit ko and humarap na siya sakin, "Okey than, what is it?" walang interes niyang sagot sakin.
"Sit, and we'll talk." sagot ko, I have to show I'm strong para mapapayag ko siya...
He saw me cried thousand times, simula ng umalis kaming states, he saw my fragile spot...
"hurry up//what is it?" medyo tumaas na yung boses niya.
"Please live with us...live with me...and with your kids." simula ko, I waited for his reply pero parang nawalan lang siya ng gana sa sinabi ko.
"what is this Prie, another 'please don't leave me Gello' talk?? kung ganyan nanaman pag uusapan natin, please spare me Pricilla...anim na taon ko nang naririnig yan...at uulitin mo nanaman ngayon?"
"No! that's not that...I want you to libe with this family for the kids..." dagdag ko.
"Prie, hindi mo ba nakikita, I'm settling down with Izzy...she's pregnant and we're going to have kids after 5 months--"
"five?? she's four months pregnant??" nawala lahat ng lakas ko ng narinig kong apat na buwan nang buntis ang kabit ng asawa ko...really? so that means hindi niya pa kami nakikita, buntis na si Izzy...
"Yes she is..." sagot niya.
"Pero Gello, please...live with your kids...can't you see? Ria-Nie's recovering quickly kapag ikaw kasama niya, Dino need his father while growing up...They need you Gello..." halos ibulong ko na yung huling linya.
"Izzy and our child need me too...hindi mo paba na iintindihan na we want to settle down as a family?"
dun ako natigilan...db kasal kami?? why is he planning to have a family with other woman?
"Gello...I want this marriage to work." yun lang ang naisagot ko..totoo naman db?
"work?hahaha! Prie nag papatawa kaba?? paulit-ulit kong sasabihin sayo na simula palang Pricilla hindi na tlga tayo para sa isa't isa...pero pinilit mo, so ayan na ayan na conseques mo..." sabi niya sabay tumayo to leave me...
"Gello..come live in States with us...let's start again.A fresh start...I will adopt Izzy's child para hindi ka malayo sa anak mo, and if you want to take care of her during her pregnancy, she can live her with us until she gave birth, I've been there...na buntis na ako so I know how to take care of a preganant woman, i can guide her...I will do anything....just live with us in States and try a fresh start there." mabilis kong sambit bago pa siya umalis...
tumigil siya sa pag lalakad at humarap sakin,
"and why will do that?" tanong niya sakin naparang hindi niya ako pinag kakatiwalaan.
"I told, I want this marriage to work Gello...Oo na, ipinilit ko na ang sarili ko sayo noon...pero db ganun din ang ginawa mo noong nagpakasal tayo? basta mo nlang ako hinila sa simbahan in the middle of the night right after I said yes to you...you didn't gave me time to think...you scared me na aalis ka and iiwan mo ako kaya pumayag akong magpakasal..."
"so you're blaming me sa kasal na ito...?" parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa mga sinabi ko.
"No! I'm no blaming anyone...pero eto na tayo...can't we make this thing work? please..." pag mamakaawa ko.
he didn't answer me, istead he again walk away....
I ran after him and hug him.
"Please...you promise me forever that night, let's start it now." mahina kong pag mamakaawa sakanya.
"Pricilla, let go." mahina niya sagot habang pilit na inaalis ang mga braso kong nakayap sakanya,
but instead of letting him go...i hug him more and pilit ko siyang iniharap sakin and kissed him.
I kissed him just like how he kissed me the night we shared at Cebu.
I kissed him like there's no tomorrow...
"Please, just for tonight...let me make you feel hat I wanted this marriage to work." pag mamakaawa ko padin saknya...my tears are running down when i felt his hands on my face.
"this night should be worth it." sagot niya sakin before kissing me again.
binuhat niya ako paakyat sa kwarto namin, not minding to see if the kids are okey on the other room...
he start kissing me while my eyes are close when the picture of him raping me flash in my mind...
"Ahhh!" I shouted and sit up quickly...
"I'm sorry...I know what are thinking, I won't do that again..."
"I'm sorry." mahina kong sagot saknya and I start kissing him again, continuing...
and for the second time in our three years of marriage, My husband made love with me.
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It was late in the morning when I woke up...
Gello's still sleeping beside me, hugging me.
"are you awake?" tanong niya sakin,
"i thought you're atill asleep." sagot ko.
"I'm not..I'm just resting..." mahinahong niya sagot, this is new for me that my husband is this calm when I'm talking to him.
"Gello, about my plan living in States, can you--"
"I'll talk to Izzy about our child...and give me time to think." sabat niya sakin...
that hurt me alot...parang hindi ako makahinga at may mabigat na bagay ang nakapatong sa dibdib ko...and before my tears roll of tumalikod na ako saknya,
"Okey, just let me know kung pumayag siya, so I can fix the other room where she's staying in." mahina kong sagot and i got up trying to cover as much as skin I could with the blanket.
hindi narin kami nagusap after nun, he eat brunch with us, joking with the kids...
played with them after the meal...
I'm at the kitchen right now, cleaning the kitchen floor I heard him saying his goodbyes to the kids,
"where's mom?" tanong niya sa mga bata.
"I'm here." sagot ko.
he didn't say anything kaya akala ko naka alis na siya so I continue scrubing the floor.
"Cinderella?" boses ni Gello sa likuran ko, so I turned around to face him, I saw the kids giggled too...I smiled at them.
"Yes?" tanong ko.
"Give me two years, and I'll start a life with you in states." then he smiled at me and walked away. "bye. see you this evening.!" pahabol niya pa.
"bye dad!" sagot nung mga bata...
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