just like what I said...
tatlong araw naming hindi nakita si Gello...
New Year passed...and if you're all asking kung saan namin ini'celebrate yung New Year...we celebrated it at our old appartment with my mom and the barkada...
and now...
it's the fourth day and we are all hoping na uuwi na siya dito sa condo niya... Sera's here paying a visit...the kids are busy playing on the floor while kami ni Sera na kukwentuhan.
"I'm pretty sure it's him!" pag kukumbinsi niya sakin.
"Okey, so let's say it's him...but why he's in the ob gene? and why are you there too?" nag tatakang tanong ko saknya sabay taas ng kilay ko...
kung anong pinag uusapan namin ngayon...we're talking about my husband...
kinukumbinsi ako ni Sera na nakita niya si Gello kanina sa isang hospital kung saan siya kukuha ng results niya....and he's in the OB section of the hospital.
"I don't know why he's there...but i have my reasons to be there." sagot niya sakin.
"and what's that reason?" tanong ko saknya.
"I'm there to visit my cousin, remember the one i told you na ampon lang ni tita and bumalik siya sa pamilya niya at itinaboy siya nito...the one suffering from HIV na ngayon ay inaalagaan ng tunay niyang kapatid."
"Yes, i remember her...why she's there?" tnaong ko ulit.
"yhe...her situation's getting worst...and you know the bad thing...tatlong taon na siyang inaalagaan nung kapatid niya and I never saw that guy...pano kung masama rin pala intensyon nun sa pinsan ko tulad ng pamilya niya?"
"kung talagang masama intensyon nung kapatid, hindi naman ata mag tya-tyaga yun na tumamba pa sa tabi ng pinsan mo ngayon na malala na ang kalagayan niya..db?" sagot ko.
"well, that's true...but back to the topic..I really saw him there!" pag pipilit parin ni Sera.
"okey, he's there. But why?" tanong ko.
"are you pregnant?" out from nowhere na tnaong ni Sera
"obviously not!" sagot ko.
"so, maybe it's the other girl, did you know her name?" tanong ni Sera sakin.
"let's not talk about that..." mahina kong sagot saknya, I don't want to think na kaya nandun si Gello kasi buntis si Izzy. "Do you want some juice?" pag iibang topic ko, patayo na sana ako pero hinawakan ni Sera yung kamay ko.
"Prie...you okey?" tanong niya sakin.
I smield at her, "Yes I am..."
...but i know to myself that I'm not..
it's 7:00 pm na...umuwi na si Sera kanina lang after our dinner...
iyak na ng iyak si Ria-Nie and Dino was all grumpy...I don't know what came up to my children after umalis ni Sera they are asking me kung nasaan na daw daddy nila...
Ria-Nie was looking for him for the past three days and she broke down this time when I told her the truth that I don't know where her dad is...
well, I was...I shouted a little.
but when I was about to fall and cry with my daughter and shout his name too...
the front door open...
"What's the problem??" maamo niyang tanong habang naka tingin kay Ria-Nie na karga ko...
he didn't look at me...he just ask for Ria-Nie from me.
"daddy!" umiyak parin si RIa-Nie at mahigpit na yumakap saknya.
"why are you crying?" tanong niya sa bata, and still not looking at me.
hindi sumagot si Ria-Nie, she just kept on crying...maybe she forgot again why she's crying.
"She's looking for you for the past three days, where have you been?" mahinanong tanong ko.
"somewhere." walang emosyon niyang sagot sakin...hindi na ako sumagot. It's clear na ayaw niya akong makausap.
Dino ran and hugged Gllo's legs, "Daddy! We miss you...where did you go?" tanong ni Dino...but instead of answering our son, he just bend down...kiss him on the head and kinarga din siya...
then he walked away from me dala yung dalwang bata.
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later on that night, Ria-Nie requested for a bedtime story kay Gello, which he happily did...
I still don't know kung bakit niya ginawa ito sa mga bata...he's building a good relationship with them pero tinangihan niya yung birth certificate nila...
pero, as of now...wala muna akong pakialam...as long as he have a good relationship with the kids and he's staning as a real father to them.
Gello's still on the shower kaya napag desisyonan kong ayusin muna yung hinubad niyang jacket para mailagay na sa laundry...tulog narin yung mga bata, thanks to my husband wala na akong ibang gagawin.
Pero sabi nga nila, may mga bagay na hinihiling naing sana hindi nalang natin ginawa...
I was looking at the pocket ng may nakapa ako....
I was scared to pull it out kasi, I know what it is.
I'm just scared...but my curiousity was ranging.
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I pulled it out...
and tama nga ang hinala ko....
it's a pregnancy test....
a pregnancy test...with two lines...
"are you pregnant?"
"obviously not!"
"so, maybe it's the other girl, did you know her name?"
bumalik yung mga sinabi ni Sera sakin...
so? he's out for three days kasi buntis si Izzy? that's why he's at the OB section of the hospital...
Oh my God...
I start crying....
nanghina mga tuhod ko at sadyang na paluhod nalang ako...
hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko...
nahimas masan nalang ako ng lumabas si Gello ng bathroom...
"who is this?" tnaong ko sknya habang pinapakita yung pregnancy test.
he didn't look at me or answer me...parang wala lang siyang na rinig...
"Gello, please..who is this?" tanong ko ulit habang sinusundan ko siya pabalik balik sa kwarto namin.
"Gello..please...answer me." pag mamakaawa ko.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT!" pasigaw na tanong niya sakin.
"I just want to know who is this?" tanong ko.
hindi niya parin ako sinagot...nakabihis na siya at dederesto nanaman sa pintuan...I just followed him, waiting for an answer...
pero bago siya ulit maka labas ng condo niya, i swallowed my pride...
masasaktan din lang ako kung hindi ko tatanongin...
mas magaan na sa loob na alam ko kung sinong may ari nito....
"Gello, is this Izzy's?" mahina kong tanong...
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he turned around and look me in the eyes...
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"Yes, that's hers." matalim niyang sagot at sabay inagw yung pregnancy test at tuluyan nang umalis.
