Thirty Days To Forever

13 - The Lullabye

Rhian

I just arrived home from taping and surprised to see my manager and Tito Ronnie waiting for me with a worried face and so is my Mom. I approached them and kissed them both.

"What's wrong, Mom? You're here Tito magkasama lang tayo kanina ah." tanong ko sa kanila.

"You're early, Sweetheart." tanong ni Mom.

"I want to rest, Mom. With the look in your faces I know you already knew why I'm early." malungkot kong sabi.

"Rhi, sweetie. I think one of your boyfriends or their friends got something to do with this." Tito Ronnie said.

"Ex boyfriends, Tito. I don't care anymore. And I don't give a damn. They can show what they want to show.Fu,ck them for all I care."

"Rhian!" tawag ni Mommy.

"I'm sorry, Mom, Tito. Whatever I say, it doesn't matter anymore. It's useless to speak, my faithful supporters will understand and will always stood by me. My detractors will not believe and will always out to destroy me. So it doesn't matter to me anymore." sabi ko and I saw the look of concern in their faces. I understand them, it was just three months ago when I had my heartbreak for the nth time and now here's another blow.
"Don't worry, Mom, I'll be fine. Just need to take a nap. Bye Tito see you later and thank you." sabi ko at muling humalik sa kanila. As I climbed up the stairs in my room, I wanted to shout and cuss out the bastard who made that video of me making out with a guy in an exclusive bar. It was not a clear video but the caption says it's me and that ex boyfriend of mine. Was that the time when I got drunk and so wasted? I couldn't remember anymore, all I know is that when I fall in love I really fall in love. Or is it really love? Why are there people who take advantage of your love for them? Why are there people who wants to see you down and out? Why are there who can't accept me as me?

I'm in bed but couldn't sleep, I've been in too many controversies far worst than this, but why I felt so afraid now? Is it because of Glaiza? and what she might be thinking about this? Alam niya na rin kaya mga nangyari sa akin noon? Oo naman Rhi, artista ka, malamang alam na niya. Sagot ng isip ko. Just then I heard my phone ringing. Bianca. She already called me earlier the minute the news came out. She's out of town for the taping of her show. And now here she is again calling me. My bestfriend.

"Hi B." I plainly answered her call.

"You home now?"

"Yeah, but can't sleep."

"Just take a rest, that issue would soon die down. Gaya ng dati." kalma niyang sabi.

"I know...I've been in much worst situation before..."

"But you seemed more concern now..." sagot niya at natahimik ako sa sinabi niya, basa na talaga niya ako. "You're worried about her, aren't you?"

"I think I don't deserve her, B" wala sa loob kong sabi.

"Why so? Because of your failed relationships? Don't you dare think like that Rhi. If Glaiza thinks that she doesn't deserve you then you don't deserve her, too. Your only fault is you fell in love, B and you fell in love deep. So don't be hard on yourself. Get some sleep para mawala ang bad vibes sa utak mo. Call you later, ok. Bye B." She said and we bid goodbye. She already knew about me and Glaiza and she agreed to Glaiza, too. We have to give time to my heart.

I really can't sleep, I decided to message Glaiza.

Me: Glai?

Glai: Mk?

Me: Busy?

Glai: Thinking of you? YES!

Napangiti ako sa sagot niya. How I miss her now, I felt I'm out of my status as celebrity every time I'm with her, talking to her or exchanging messages with her. I felt like an ordinary person with Glaiza, I felt that the first time we met. I don't know if she already knew me back then but she never treated me as a celebrity but as an ordinary girl. Matagal ata akong nagiisip ng mag beep muli ang phone ko.