Logan lay diagonally across the bed. He had been lying here for hours, with Rory and Roberts words chasing each other through his head.
His emotions were in turmoil. He felt betrayed, but couldn't exactly explain by whom or how. It was part Rory for getting his hopes up and then throwing such a complete curveball at him. It was also the guys for not backing him up automatically. He couldn't believe that all three of the guys wanted him to just get over himself.
He also realized that a small part of him was excited for a baby, particularly with Rory, but he was terrified at the same time. He had no idea how to be a father, he just knew that he had to do the exact opposite of what Mitchum had done.
He couldn't get any sort of order to his thoughts. He reached for his cell phone and re read Rory's pro/con list now that he knew what it really was.
Pride. Logan sighed. That was the real problem in their relationship, after all. They both had their pride and it had gotten in their way many times. Logan's pride when she turned down his proposal. Rory's pride when she had to refuse him. She knew that marrying him would open doors for her career based on his name and not her merit. Logan's pride when they had reconnected in Hamburg. He was so sure that she was going to break his heart again that he had agreed to her crazy Vegas idea. Rory believing that he couldn't give her another chance after she had rejected him when she was 22.
Logan decided that he had to find a way to talk to her while sorting his emotions out. He quickly sent a text.
<I'm sorry for leaving like that. It's a lot to take in. I'm going to take some time to process. Do you mind if we keep things to text while I do?>
Even though it was after 1 am, he immediately saw the three dots indicating that Rory was responding.
<Whatever you need. I know it's a lot. I'll follow your lead here. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you through this.>
Logan drew in a breath.
<Can I ask you some questions?>
<Anything >
<Did you consider terminating?>
There was a pause before the dots began flashing.
<Not seriously. And only in the first day or two. But I know that I would never have been able to do that. I'm pro choice, but there really wasn't any other choice for me personally.>
<ok. I just wondered. I'm having a hard time getting over the two weeks that you waited before telling me >
<I'm sorry. I didn't know how to tell you. I knew that this would blow up your life. >
Logan sighed. <get some sleep. I'll be in touch with you tomorrow.>
<good night > Rory responded.
