Flawed Perfection

Flawed Perfection Ch. 19

AH!!! Only chapter 20 and the epilogue left! :D I have 8 days left, do you think I can finish it? Picture on the side is how you gotta love yourself! The song to me represents how Charlotte needs to start accepting and loving herself again :)

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I woke up the next day feeling sick, though I suppose that’s just because I’m not used to digesting so much. Late last night I woke up and thought about trying to block the tube feeding me. But then I saw Luke and decided against it.

He was still here with me now, which to me was impressive. I was sure he’d ditch me to go home and sleep in his own bed. Right now Luke was slumped to the side, fast asleep. He was snoring lightly.

 I’ve been awake for a while now. My parents had come in and out, checking on me. My dad left to go home because they couldn’t keep Dan here and he needed to be looked after.

 I’m not sure if Hazel has been contacted, or if she even cares since she’s been made Sleeping Beauty. My thoughts turned bitter at the thought of it.

 Luke told me none of the dancers left after I passed out. They all stayed as an ambulance came and rushed me to the hospital. He was contacted about half an hour after it happened when Dan asked why he wasn’t here.

 It kind of stung that none of them had bothered to show up but I guess the audition is way more important than me. If I had been there I know I would’ve chosen that over me.

 Luke stirred slightly in his chair and I smiled at him. At least he loved me enough to come. Even promised to stay with me the whole time. Though tomorrow is Monday and I expect he won’t be allowed to skip school. His mom is strict about that stuff.

 Why would anyone want to stay with me anyway? I mean Kelly told me I’d be in here months.

 I sighed deeply and closed my eyes. Of course I just had to screw up my life like this. I pulled the pillow over my head. But at the same time I still want to be skinny. I still want to keep dieting and counting calories.

“URGH!” I let out a frustrated groan. My life is just over.

“Char?” Luke asked sleepily, yawning.

I froze, just staring at the dim white of my pillow. Oops?

“Uh, hi.” I murmured pulling the pillow off my face. I smiled sheepishly at him as he rubbed his eyes.

“How long have you been awake?” he asked trying to look more awake.

I felt kind of bad for waking him up. He had chosen to actually spend the night here with me sleeping in that uncomfortable plastic chair. I didn’t even realize that I was disturbing him.

I shrugged slightly, not really sure how long I’d been up. “I dunno.” I said tilting my head and smiling at him. “Not too long.”

Luke smiled slightly at me and pulled his chair so it was sitting right next to the bed instead of against the wall. “Well I’m sorry you had to listen to my snoring.” He joked.

I rolled my eyes and laughed slightly. “It wasn’t that bad.” I teased him back lightly.

He chuckled and grabbed my hand gently, his thumb skimming across my knuckles. “Well I didn’t want to leave you.” He said with his sweet smile.

I felt butterflies erupt in my stomach; these I’m sure were from Luke and not the food-feeding machine.

“Thanks.” I murmured, blushing slightly. “Though you’ll have to go school and stuff soon.” I told him squeezing his hand.