Who's In?

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Abby's POV

Hahaha this was going to be hilarious. The bottle landed on Matt. Hopefully he'll chose dare cause he'd be up for anything. I just hope it doesn't involve me.

I've kinda had a feeling that he's had a little crush on me for a while now, but was I ready to act on his feelings?

No.

I still didn't feel anything but hurt inside of me.

There were moments when I forgot about what I'd gone through and then I'd see that photo in my mind over and over again.

My boyfriends legs a tangled mess with my best friends after they had sex.

It hurt so much.

I remember that day, clearly. We had an awesome holiday with my family. I did my final phone check before boarding the plane heading for home. I looked at the new feeds on instagram and there it was.

Crushed.

Breathless.

I dropped my phone.

I fell to the floor and bawled.

My parents ran over to me trying to pull me back together.

I couldn't talk.

I couldn't tell them.

Mum picked up my phone and saw the photo.

She was shocked and instantly understood my hurt.

She grabbed onto me as I cried.

After a few minutes we boarded the plan and headed back home.

That was the 27th December.

I had over 30o texts and missed calls before I decided to block both of them. I wouldn't go to the door when either of them came over because they knew only I would be home.

I couldn't face either of them.

Until last night at Matt's party when Sasha walked in with a huge smile on her face I had managed to avoid them.

At the time I was serving vodka shots. I got so anxious when I saw her that I literally downed the whole tray.

Matt stopped her from approaching me. He asked her to leave but I don't remember much after that!

It was now was Sunday, 29th January.

I was going back to school in 2 more days and they'd both be there. I had a month to get over this hurt but it still hasn't gone away. A month is not enough time to heal my pain.

Can I forgive them?

No.

Not right now.

Can I move on?

I know I have to, but right now it's still so raw!

This was our last year of school. It's supposed to be full of amazing memories. My best friend who has been there for me since I was 4 years old has betrayed me. The person I thought she was never actually existed. She's now just another person walking the school halls.

My boyfriend well we'd only been together 11 months and yeah I'd had sex with him but obviously I wasn't enough for him if he wandered elsewhere.

"Abby. You ok." Hunter grabbed my hand.

"Yeah, just deep in thought right now." I answered with a small smile.

"So Matt, have you finally decided. Truth or dare?" Jimmy asked Matt.

"Dare!" Matt looked right at me and Jimmy noticed my reaction and smirked. My mouth gave me away as it dropped open. Just before Jimmy was about to hand out Matt's dare I knew I had to say something.

"Guys, I'm a mess. I'm not ready to do anything with a guy even if it's just for fun. I feel anxious right now and Matt you said this is about fun. I want to abstain from any kissing please." A tear slipped down my face.

"Abby, its fine. We get it and no ones here to make anyone do anything they don't want to do. Just remember we're here for you so don't think you're alone. Mikayla adores you. I adore you." Matt placed his head down. "I hate what happened to you, but I think you're really brave."

Tears were streaming down my face now. "I've been outta control drinking like an idiot to forget, I've been passing out at parties and I don't even know if guys have taken advantage of me, how am I f&cking brave?"

"Listen, no ones touched you. I've made sure of it and no ones going to unless you say you want them. It's been a month and I get it in a few days you see them again. But guess what, who cares about them so stop making them mean something to you. They may have meant something to you in the past but they were not worthy of you now so just forget them. The hurt will ease. Just remember you are loved and there are people who would never hurt you."

I smiled at Matt as my hand reached out and grabbed his.

Jimmy cleared his throat. "Well it's obvious you won't be kissing anyone tonight Matt so I dare you to ...."