The Student (Kurama X Reader ) Yu Yu Hakusho

[Chapter Nine]

( I'm so sorry that I haven't been updateing like I should. Things on my end are not great at the moment are are goona get wores but I will try to update when ever I can.)

When you had gotten home, you had been so upset and nervous you couldn’t stop from throwing up. It got the point where you had nothing left in your body to throw up. You had made the right decision, Shuichi said so himself, so why did you regret it so much?

There was no way that a relationship between the two of you could work out. No way. Not now, at least. Maybe if you waited until he graduated, then you could start something, but would he be willing to wait? You weren’t sure.

The next day you had begged Noreen to hang out with you and make you feel better. You wouldn’t tell her what upset you, but she did her best to make you feel better. Later in the evening, she had called Minato and Kaoru to come over and hopefully help her cheer you up. You found out that Kaoru hadn’t left you the rose, and your thoughts instantly went to Shuichi.

The redhead wouldn’t leave your mind, especially when Kaoru’s hands were trailing your body as the two of you sat on the couch. His touch wasn’t the same as Shuichi’s. Shuichi’s hands were gentle yet demanding as they glided over your body while Kaoru’s were greedy. No matter what you did, your thoughts always compared Kaoru to Shuichi. It turned out Shuichi was a hard man to best.

By the time Monday rolled around, you weren’t really sure what your answer was. You knew you should say that he could no longer help you out and that’s what you planned on telling him, but you didn’t know if you would be strong enough to say it to his face. Maybe I should leave him a note? But you didn’t want him to view you as a coward.

You patiently waited for Shuichi to come after school as you rehearsed what you planned on saying to him. A light chuckle reached your ears and you turned to see Shuichi standing in the doorway talking with a teacher. His eyes connected with yours and he smiled wide before turning his attention back to the teacher. You soaked in his form. Tall, slender form, muscular underneath those clothes, physical features rivaling that of a God, perfect posture, and a wonderful personality. Could you really tell him he couldn’t help you out anymore?

“Have a nice day Mrs. Uru,” Shuichi said as he bid the woman farewell.

“You too Shuichi.” She smiled wide as she continued walking down the hallway to the stairs.

“Hello Miss [Last Name].”

You missed the sound of your first name leaving his lips. “Hey Shuichi.” You didn’t bother hiding the depression you felt.

You saw the briefest amount of concern flitter across his eyes before he retained that soft, serene expression. “I take it you’ve come to a decision.”

“Yeah,” you sighed out. “Will you sit down?”

He politely did as he was asked and he watched as you walked over to the classroom door and closed it. You didn’t want anyone hearing what you had to say in case you blurted out something you hadn’t planned on saying.

“Shuichi,” you said as you came to lean on the front of your desk and not sit in your chair. “I know what I should do and I know what I want to do. And quite frankly, I’m confused as hell. So for now, I suppose if you’re still up to it, you could help me out.”

He smiled as he nodded his head. “I would love too.”

“I can understand if you don’t want too because of my rejection and all. I’ll understand that.”

“Miss [Last Name], I would love to help you out.”

“I know you said that, but do you really? I mean, I’m being difficult here. I say no to you but then I don’t do the other right thing and ask for a new student. I’m giving you inconsistent messages and maybe it’d be better if you stopped helping me out. But I don’t want you too. I still want to hang out with you like we used to and have fun talking about whatever comes to mind; is that selfish of me?”