My Two Flames✔️

Chapter 34

This book is so close to ending :( PS: you DONT. Want to miss the next update

On my way to my house it starts to rain.

The rain hits the front glass and I flick on the windshield wipers and luckily for me and Mason's truck, it is nothing but a light drizzle. The rain reminds me of tears and that just reminds me of what I am about to do.

I've never had my heart broken and I can gladly say that up till this moment , I have never broke anybodies heart either.

I let out a shaky breath and I bring a hand up to my forehead and start to rub my temples, the beginning of a headache starting to bloom.

This is it.

This is the one thing I have never wanted to do and I was going to do it. What do you say when you look into the eyes of someone who cares about you and you tell them that you don't care for them as much as they care for you?

I have no idea if Justin loved me. Or if we could have loved each other. But I do know that it is going to hurt him either way.

I think about what if this whole thing was reversed? What if I wasn't the one who found someone else and he was?

If I told him I cared for him, kissed him, and then he came to me and said he wanted someone else , I would be ... Heat broken.

Duh, you idiot! That is the whole point of this.

I shake my head. I have no idea how people can do this? The whole thing was making me feel like I was going to throw up. It felt like I was the bad guy in some movie.

Maybe I was the bad guy?

I turn on my blinkers at a stop light and I let go of the steering wheel for a moment and drag my hands over my face. I had to do this. Once this was over I could ... What? Establish a relationship with Jason?

Till this moment, I never thought about what would happen after I confronted him about the dance. Now he knows I have fallen for him and I know that he has fallen for me, but what is the next step?

Oh my god, did this mean he was going to end up my ... boyfriend?

Okay, Why does that sound to .... Real?

I have never had a real boyfriend and I don't think Jason has actually had a girlfriend either. How do I even be a girlfriend?

I think about how Kelsey dated this guy Max who was on the basketball team and she would always go to his games. Did that mean that if Jason joined a team, I would have to go to his games?

The light turns green and I turn, coming to a decision. Maybe I wasn't girlfriend material. I could never see myself in the bleachers cheering on my boyfriend as he throws baskets into a hoop.

But, you see, that's it. That's why me and Jason fit together.

He would never be the boy on the court. He would never be the boy to ever ask me to support him, even if I would want too.

We would be the couple who wouldn't really be a couple. We would tease each other, be there for each other without it being to much and we would kiss like we kissed at the Diner.

That kiss. Yeah, okay, maybe I was blushing now.

That kiss really was something and I would love to have a million more of them. I wouldn't even mind if he was the only boy I kissed for the rest of my life.

A little dramatic, but he was seriously that good.

Thinking about how happy Jason makes me brings on guilt. I shouldn't be this happy when I was about to take someone else's happiness away.