Dear Fay,
I don't know why this is bothering me so much... What my dad doesn't know is that i don't know what I believe. I can't go to mass if I don't believe. That's wrong I can't receive The Body of Christ if I don't actually think I'm eating his human flesh. That's sacrilegious or something! I can't go. He doesn't know about the internal battle I have within myself arguing, is God real? Is Jesus real? In Catholicism, as I went to Catholic school for many years, they stated that abortion is wrong, you shouldn't use protection. You can't abort. Gayness is wrong. Then there's Pope Francis who is telling us that being gay is alright and saying, "who am I to judge". But, I have so many questions and I'm so so confused about what to believe anymore. I just don't want to disappoint anyone because my parents wanted Brie to be confirmed. I guess I'm their lsat hope. But they can't put all this pressure on me. It's just not fair. It's stressful and terrifying and I'm still trying to figure out who exactly I am. Plus, I sort of want to go to Church alone now. It's scary doing it with them and it stresses me out. I guess I just want them to loosen their hold on me a little. Then I can breathe and find out who I am.
Love,
Rose
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RandomWhen your internet best friend decides you've come too close what do you do after you part ways? One way would be talk about it. Another would be to become depressed or even suicidal. Rose's way is to write. And she writes, pretending to talk to Fay...
