Dear Fay

Hard to Remember, Easy to Forget

Dear Fay,
This is to you, to me, to anyone with anxiety or depression. Depression warps your mind. If you're randomly annoyed at people who love you. You are worth it. You are loved. Even when you think you're not. That's a lie, that's depression speaking. You are wanted. No one will ever forget you. You've left your mark on their hearts. Please don't leave yet, it's not your time. What will happen when you're gone? I'll give you hint. Your best friend will blame themselves. Saying that it's their fault. If only they'd known. If only they were there for you. They will sink into depression and vow to never forget you. They will suffer depressions o badly that everyday they get home from school they'll sink to the flower in the bathroom and clutch their wrist to they're chest. Asking themselves, "why couldn't I do more?" They blame themselves for your death. Your father becomes a drunkard and never shows up to work anymore. Your mother cries herself to sleep in a lonely bed as your father sleeps on the couch every night. Your sister asks themselves what happened. Why didn't you come to them? Why weren't they good enough? Were they THAT terrible? Your cousin's wonder why they had no idea. They thought you were so happy. Why couldn't you tell them? Why didn't they know? Your school has a memorial service and your best friend skips because she can't handle watching people pretend they knew you. Your internet friends? They don't know what happened. You disappeared one day without another word. They fear you gone for good, but they don't want it to be true. You have a mark on this world don't leave it unfinished. Leave your message. You're here for a purpose. Don't leave them. They love you. You're needed. You're loved. You are NOT worthless. Stay.

Love,
Rose 🌹