Found And Married (Mafias Series # 3) - RAW/UNEDITED

Chapter Thirty - Two: The Phone Confession

"Lasing ka na" Biglang nagsalit si Janea at nilagok ang beer na hindi ko alam kung pang ilan na niya

"Hindi pa ako lasing!" Tumawa ako.

"Magpapasundo ako kay Jake." Bigla ko nalang nasabi iyon habang nag iScroll ng Contact Numbers sa Phone ko.

The last thing I knew, I was already calling Jake. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ako kumibo at hinayaan lang magring ang Phone Call

"Hello."

My heart skipped a beat when I finally heard his voice on the phone. It's been 67 hours since the last time I saw him I barely went home and barely sleep. I don't wanna be alone and this Bar has been my bedroom for almost 3 days. Crazy isn't it. But nothing is more crazier than running away from my husband.

"Hello, Rian are you there." Narinig ko ulit ang boses ni Jake. Napapikit lang ako at dinamdam ang boses ni Jake. Why do I feel that a knife was stuck in my chest. Nahihirapan akong huminga. Parang bumigat ang loob ko

"Rian." He called my name. His voice was like a medication that I wanted to enjoy. But strangely, This medication is hurting me.

"Don't say anything... You can hang up if you want. I just want to treat this as medicating myself..." I sighed.

I didn't heard a sound on the following seconds.

"Can I go home? I badly miss home. I badly miss the smell of the food that you are cooking. I missed the view of you, wearing your apron. I miss hugging you from behind..." Napakagat ako sa labi ko nang maramdaman ko ang pagtulo ng luha ko. Napapikit ako at ipinagpatuloy ang pagsasalita ko

"Pwede bang, Matulog ako ng napakahimbing. I will take a dayoff and do everything that I missed again. "

"Can I talk to you about my Operations? I had a Bad Day today. Today my operation was a fail. He died. I was too confident to start the surgery right away. "

"Crazy right? Kasi nababaliw na yata ako. Miss na miss na kita. Pwede bang ako nalang Jake?" Napatakip ako sa bibig ko. I breathed heavily and I tried to stopped my sobs. I was afraid that he might hear it in case he didn't hang up

"Pwede bang, Ako na lang ang piliin mo? Because I am still holding on to our marriage.. Is there anyway that we will live without any affairs? Is there a world we might live without Aileen? Is there any chance that we will go back to the way we are.. Dahil hindi ko na alam kung may panghahawakan pa ako Jake... I am hurting again and again. I shut my eyes and pretend that everything is fine. But i just can't.."

Nilapag ko ang Phone ko sa mesa at napahagulgol sa pag iyak. Mukhang hindi ko na kayang pigilan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan at hanggang kailan ko kayang Ipaglaban ang pagmamahal ko kay Jake. Pasuko na ako, At pakiramdam ko wala nang natira sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung papaano ako magpapatuloy kung mawawala siya sa akin o makikipaghiwalay ako sa kanya

Kailangan kong harapin ang katotohanan na kailangan ko siyang Isuko. Dahil siguro iyon ang mas nakakabuti. Mali ako, Hindi ako ang Taong mas may karapatan sa kanya. Mali ako, Dahil ako ang naging dahilan ng hiwalayan nila ni Aileen. Maybe from the very start I was a big mistake in Jake's Life. If he didn't take me when I was 16, Jake should have a good life with Aileen because He loves Aileen even before he started feeling something to me.

Napansin ko ang Phone ko,

The Call is still going on.

"Hello?" I stuttered.

"Hmmm." I heard his voice. Hindi ko aakalahing hindi niya ibinaba ang Tawag.

"A-Are you still listening?"