Dirty
Loreen struggles with life, like most teenagers. But unlike a lot of other teenagers, her father is abusive, sexually and physically. It really gets to Loreen but it isn't like she can do anything about it, she has no other family except for...
^^Let's just admire his cute af wink. Ok, Continue on.
Loreen's P.O.V.
My hand knocks on Grayson's door and I wait for a response. I hear him say come in so I do. I walk into Grayson's room and shut the door.
"Ok, so I don't know what is going on, but I just want to know what is going on between you and Emily. I get that Emily is a hoe and everything, but what happened? All of this doesn't feel right. I don't like to see you and Ethan mad at each other so I would like to know. Please talk to me," I say.
He looks at me like I am crazy. I am not that dumb. Maybe a little crazy but not dumb. He sighs.
"Emily and I were hooking up quite a bit. I went to ask her out multiple times, but she rejected me and threw herself on me. After a while, I stopped asking. I love her, Lor. I really do. I decided to give it another try. I tried asking her out again and she blew me off. She told me that she would rather be in a relationship with Ethan than me. She said she might even try to get with him. I told Ethan all this except her saying she was going to go after him. I figured out that she had been with a lot of guys beside me at the same time. It hurts me, but I still want to be with her for some reason. I got mad at Eth because of what she said and since my girl was going to go after him, I was going to go after his girl. You. I realize that this was stupid because it wasn't his fault. I shouldn't have done anything. I don't like you as more than a friend, Lor. I swear. I am just an idiot," he finishes.
I go over to his bed and sit down next to him. I put my hand on top of his.
"You aren't an idiot. You made a dumb decision. It wasn't very smart. That doesn't mean you are dumb, okay? I love you too, Grayson. But just like you, I don't love you for more than a friend. I love Ethan and that will never change," I tell him.
"I know. I wish me and Emily could be like you and Ethan. You guys are so special and it is so obvious. I'm sorry, Lor," Grayson says.
"I am okay. You are forgiven by me. Ethan, on the other hand, looked really pissed," I say.
"Yeah. I screwed up bad. I will make it up to him. Emily needs to understand what she did. She is going to pay," he looks at me and then, with a look like 'OMG I just said that out loud', he recovers himself. "I am not going to hurt her if that's what you think."
"Okay. Just don't do anything stupid," I tell him. I get up and walk out of his room and close his door behind me. I make my way to my room.
Once in my room, I close the door. I turn around and jump/scream. Ethan stands in my room.
"Oh! Oh lord, Jesus. You scared the shit out of me, Ethan!" I exclaim.
"Where were you? I thought you would be in my room, but you weren't. And you weren't in here," he says like he already knows where I was at. There is no point in lying. We both know now that Grayson doesn't actually love me.
"I was in Grayson's room," I say simply. I walk past him and sit on my bed.
"Why?" he asks.
"Well, let's see. You wouldn't talk to me. I am usually understanding, but it is really starting to upset me, Ethan! I ask you things and you ignore me. I can't get anything out of you. I wanted to know what happened out there and you wouldn't tell me! You don't have to shield me from the world because trust me, I know that the world sucks. I know that there are terrible people. I get that! So you don't have to shield me from all that because I already know. Just tell me things. I fucking love you and I don't know how to make that more clear to you," I finish ranting.
I don't know where all of this came from. All I know is that I just got really pissed and my stomach is starting to hurt. Shit. . . I know what is happening. I get up and start walking to my bathroom. Ethan is in the middle of talking, but I have no clue what he has been saying.
"-- don't know what has been going on--Where are you going? I am trying to tell you things like you wanted," he says, interrupting himself.
"Not now, Ethan," I say. He stands in front of me.
"You just said you wanted me to talk to you. What do you wa--" he starts.
"Ethan, MOVE! I said not now! Move!" I say, loudly. My stomach is really starting to hurt and I know I am on my period. Fucking Christ. My eyes start to water from the cramping.
I walk around him and into my bathroom. I close the door and walk over to the toilet and sit, pulling down my P.J. pants and underwear. Yep, I started. I start to cry.
Ethan hears me and slowly opens the door and walks in. "You okay, babe?" he asks me. I realize that out of everything I got, I didn't get tampons. Fuck my life.
"No. I started my period and I don't have tampons and my stomach hurts and just fuck my life right now," I cry.
"I can go get some for you if you want," he says. He is so sweet. I tell him the right kind and give him money that he gives back to me. "Don't worry about it. I got it," he says as he walks out of the bathroom and leaves me there with terrible cramps.
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