Fear

Chapter Four

Recap:

"She's back." I said simply letting out a loose breath.

He smiled in contentment and lay back on his pillow as he spoke, "I knew she could do it."

I sat with him for a little while longer before I went home. As soon as I walked in I was greeted with an empty house. I mean I'm used to the feeling but one can only hope or a change. Ever since I can remember my parents would only come home every couple of months. A phone call was a rarity as well. I always grew up with myself. Well of course Payson and Tyson as well but, you know how that is. I walked up stairs and logged into my computer. I went on facebook to see a new notification. I couldn't contain the smile when I saw Pay had uploaded a couple new photos. The ones we took in gym. Her smile was so huge.

Maybe, he shouldn't tell her right now. For once in a long time Payson is happy. And I love it.

Long walks

Turns out Tyler was a Junior like us. He was transferring to Warren too. I used this information as my opportunity to grow closer to him.

"Are you new to the area too?" I asked sitting in Josh's kitchen with him.

He nodded as he sipped his ice tea. "Me and my Aunt used to live in Woodland Park."

"Oh that's not to far from here. But if you want I could show you around."

He nodded and gave me a warm smile that probably made all the girls' knees go weak and i returned it taking his hand in mine and giving it a nice squeeze.

We ended up ditching Josh who wanted to "hang" with Amanda and we started walking along the beach 20 minutes away. It was a little chilly by the water so I wrapped my arms around myself as I posed more questions his way.

"So is Jasmine your mom?" I asked looking up at him through my fly away hair. The wind was not on my side today.

He wasn't shy about telling his life story. To be honest I thought he was going to be boring or an asshole but I really found it easy to hold a conversation with him. And he seemed honest. I almost felt bad about using him.

"No, she's my aunt actually." he said easily.

"I know I'm probably treading on to dangerous water here, but if you don't want to answer it you don't have to...why do you live with your aunt and not your parents?" I waited for him to yell at me or tell me off for being nosy or to put up a wall and excuse himself like most people do, but he didn't. Instead he answered like he did every other question...honestly.

"My dad died and my mom is MIA." he said simply."

"Oh," I said sadly. "I'm sorry to hear that."

He gave me slight smile. "It's alright. Jasmine makes up for it."

I actually felt bad for using him now. He sounds like he had a rough life and I didn't want to be known as the bitch who used him for information of her missing boyfriend. Was Tyson really worth all of this trouble? I mean let's be realistic if he wanted to talk to me he would've. He would've called me on a payphone or even wrote me a letter.

Unless he can't

My subconscious was always nagging me on the many other horrible possibilities out there. I tried to ignore them but my irrational heart wouldn't allow me to. I couldn't help but worry about him and love him. He was Tyson and no matter how pissed off I was at him I could never deny that. I will always fight for him.

"What you thinking about?" Tyler's voice scared me out of my train of thought and I literally jumped.

"Thinking hard huh." he said laughing. I joined in with him as I shook my head.

"A little of everything." I answered honestly.

He nodded in understanding. We settled in another peaceful silence. I watched the waves crash upon the shore and enjoyed the cooling sand under my feet until he spoke again. "I've been wanting to do this for a while now."

Before I had time to react his lips we on mine and for some stupid, stupid reason I didn't fight them or push him away. Instead my stupid, stupid self welcomed them and fought for the dominance he held. And boy was he a good kisser.