Painless➰Sidemen AU✔️

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Life Forms-Daughter
•Macy's POV•
I shot up screaming and shaking violently. I quickly stopped when I remembered what had happened. Tears blurred my eyes as I looked around the unfamiliar room. I knew I wasn't at the Sidemen house as the room had a homely feel to it with coloured bed sheets and things personalising the room, a computer setup to my left and a big tv in front of me catching my attention the most. I wiped my eyes and swung my legs out of the bed that I was tightly tucked in on. Pulling out my phone to see that it was almost ten at night, meaning I was out for a couple of hours. I looked onto the amazing view in front of me, spacing out, when I heard the door behind me open.
"How are you doing?" Josh asked sitting beside me.
"Mum came to me in my dream" I smiled slightly.
"What happened?" He questioned
"She reminded me to stay strong." I sniffled, not taking my gaze of the outside world.
"Can we talk about the girl in Nando's" He asked carefully.
"O-oh she was just some bully from school" I shrugged and looked down at my feet.
"What about the name- Violet?" His voice was low and had an upset undertone.
"M-m-my name before my Mum died" I watched me tears fall onto my legs, creating small damp patches. "I changed it b-because I've changed since she d-died" I chocked over my words, Josh pulled me into a warm hug that I accepted.
"Things will get better, I promise" He whispered into my shoulder, gently rocking me back and forth as I sobbed.
"They won't, they never do" I sighed. "And now you guys know my 'raging love' for Ethan" I sobbed, slightly over exaggerating. "You guys will have to kill me now" I pulled away and looked him in the eyes, knowing mines were full of the fear and upset in felt on the inside.
"No we won't, it's okay for you to love him, Macy." He spoke firmly, holding both of my shoulders at arms length to him. "And things will get better, you are our daughter, we will make sure things get better" He kissed me on the forehead, pulling me in for a warm hug.
"Now come on the others are waiting" He released and took my hand, pulling me up.
"They probably think I'm attention seeking" I told him, uneasily but still following him out.
"We don't now come on" He chuckled, pulling me out of the room and leading/dragging me to the main room. My widened eyes met with nine different others.
"It's okay, Macy, we're still the same people from this morning" Simon smiled, his icy blue eyes trying to meet mine.
But I'm not, I snapped, in my head
"I guess" I shrugged, avoiding his eyes.
"I think we should head back to the house guys" Josh suggested to the three other guys who nodded in agreement. They said their goodbyes as Cal, the tall one, pulled me off to the side.
"Don't think you can get away with this?" He growled quietly into my ear, so the others couldn't hear him.
"W-with what?" I asked quietly, my timidity very apparent.
"Loving Ethan, you'll fucking suffer just like the others" He lowly chuckled "You just wait" He pushed me near the others and walked off.
I stood there quietly until Ethan pulled me into a hug.
"I'll be over tomorrow to visit" His voice was muffled by the top of my head as he gave me a tight squeeze.
"Okay" I whispered into his ear, I wanted to stay like this forever, his arms gave me comfort and happiness.
"I love you, Macy" I said into my ear before he gave me a short kiss on the forehead then let go.
"I love y-you too" My voice trembled slightly when I saw Cal(freezy) behind Ethan, watching us.
"Come on, Macy!" Josh called from the door, I quickly scurried towards them; ripping my eyes off Cal(freezy) and following them out.
The ride home was silent, I couldn't get my mind off my mother. Never forget who you are, don't let them change you. I fiddled with my hands as the words kept ringing in my head.
What terrified me was that her image was slowly fading, as was her voice and her words. I was growing up and changing and forgetting about her. I still remembered her birthday and death day, I always took the bus to visit her in a small village outside London. To where I was born and half raised up around a community and had friends and people to support me, of course that all changed when I got adopted, they never let me go outside. I'm still surprised I even saw the guys more than once, I constantly had to stay in and clean for a certain time when they would come back.
I leaned my head on the window, as the orange street lights illuminated the car. I was in Simon's car, with Josh; JJ and Vik came in another car.
"Can I go to Aldbury (random name) tomorrow?" I asked out of the blue.
"Why do you want to go to Aldbury?" Simon asked suspiciously and glanced in the mirror.
"J-just it holds a special place in my heart" My voice wavered as I looked down at my hands that were tapping, anxiously on my knee.
"We've got meetings tomorrow, sorry Macy" Josh looked up from his phone.
"I want to get the bus anyway." I muttered, studying the pattern of the seat in font of me.
We pulled into the front drive.
"Are you sure you're okay" Simon turned around to me before we got out. His eyes had a seriousness in them I had only witnessed twice, when we went to the hospital and the time I had a black eye, it could send shivers down your spine and could make you look away in an instant.
"Yeah, she just brought up some thing I didn't want you guys to know just yet, the stuff not put down on record" I shrugged, undoing my seatbelt and getting out.
"If you want to go you can, just please let us know that you're still alive" Josh scruffed my already slightly messy hair as I walked beside him. I scoffed and tried my best to smooth it down. He laughed at me and we walked into the lift and up to the apartment. Simon had to take a call so he was still in the car.
"You think I could start school again?" I pushes out the question that has been circling my head since I met these guys before I pushed open the front door of the large house.
"We'll see" H muttered before following behind me.