Painless➰Sidemen AU✔️

0.5

Skinny Love-Bon Iver
•Macy's POV•
"YESSS!" I cheered as I scored the goal "And you're the YouTuber here" I laughed at the raging Ethan beside me
"Fuck off Macy" He grumbled and threw the controller away from him
"Awe is little E sad" I mocked in a baby voice
"Best of three?" He sighed
"You said that seven games ago" I groaned whilst sprawling myself across the floor, he was currently sitting above me on the sofa
"I'd like to see you beat me like that in real life" He laughed and poked my side. To which I squealed at the horrible feeling. "Oh, so you're ticklish?" He asked through giggles and poked me some more
"No! Ethan! Stop!" I begged through giggles
"What's going on?" Simon flew in the door to see me rolling around on the ground
"Oh, don't mind me" I sarcastically said and flopped down again causing Ethan and Simon to burst out laughing
"How badly did you lose?" Simon asked
"I won by three" I laughed, looking up again. Simon laughed at Ethan while he stood butt hurt.
"Stop talking about it" He mumbled making me laugh more
"I'll make you some pancakes to make up for it" I smiled and made my way to the kitchen. I was one of the older girls at the orphanage and Ann liked to make me cook, so I cooked quite a lot. I usually got away with the excuse 'I ate before I made them' so that's the one I was planning on using
"Really? You can cook without burning the house down?" He asked like a child on Christmas
"Yes, now you go and take a shower or something, they'll be ready soon and I'll make extra for Freya and Lewis!" I called back to him as he presumably went to take a shower. I washed my hands and started looking for ingredients. Surprisingly I found all of them easily and I started to mix them together. I also found some bacon so I stuck it on too.
"Oh, shit" I heard the amazed voice of Josh behind me.
"Yours is on the table, can you tell Freya and Lewis for me?" I asked from the stove, where I was still frying bacon.
"They're off." He said before walking to the table.
I finished frying up so I put the last of it on the table and started to wash up, not really paying much attention to the guys behind me.
"Hey Macy, are you not going to eat?" I heard Vik ask me
"No, I ate when I was cooking" I lied and turned around while wiping a mug. I could see that Simon was annoyed with my answer from the way his arm tensed but I didn't say anything
"Are you sure? You look hungry" He bargained with me
"Oh no I'm already filled to the brim" I smiled at him before turning around and continuing to wash dishes
"Macy." Josh said in a stern voice
"What?" I asked in an annoyed tone and turned around
"Take this and eat it, now." He said like a parent and held out a pancake from his plate
"Fine" I huffed and grabbed the pancake
I used to love pancakes and one of the leaders from a group that I went to taught me how to make the perfect ones. When Ann and Jack made me stop eating I never really got back into the habit again.
I slowly poked at my pancake and cut it up into small pieces. I could feel everyone's eyes boring into me. I shakily brought the fork to my mouth with a lot of effort. I opened my mouth and quickly put in the small piece of the pancake before swallowing. I gasped for air, for a breath I didn't know I was holding and looked down at the daunting plate of food.
"I-I can't, I'm sorry guys" I looked up at the worried faces and left the room. The tears were dripping down my face again. I felt so weak. So exposed to them and their judgments.
I was now just sitting in the bathroom, contemplating throwing this back up. Before I even could I felt that horrible feeling in my throat. There went the contents of my stomach. I tried my best to eat at least once a week but sometimes my stomach couldn't handle it. This was what I could control when everything else was messed up. I just helplessly sat there, hunched over the toilet letting everything up. I was lucky I had my hair in a ponytail so I didn't need to tie it up.
•Third person (a bit back)•
They all looked at each other with sadness in their eyes.
"What are we meant to do." JJ asked a little shocked.
"Well, we could check on her, make sure she hasn't done anything dangerous" Josh took charge as per usual. The guys really didn't know what to do, she was the first girl they ever cared for not in a romantic way. It was like there was something in them. Like fatherly instinct to look after her and make sure she survived. The only thing was, they had no experience in that.
"I think I might go and check on her" Ethan said, leaving down his knife and fork and heading towards the stairs. He had caught feelings so fast that he didn't even realise. He wanted to be there for her and hold her and kiss her forehead and just be in a relationship with her. He instantly heard horrible sound of vomiting echo through the hall. The fear and sadness rose in his body. Some guilt even. He opened the door to see the frail girl hunched over the toilet. He went with his instinct and went over to rub her back. Macy instantly tensed up, she still wasn't used to physical contact that didn't hurt her.
"I'm not gonna hurt you" Ethan soothingly whispered to the tired girl
"I can't stop" She whimpered, talking about the vomiting
"It's ok, it's ok" He comforted her as more of the vile substance came up
"Thank you" She whispered, his warm hand starting to comfort her.
"Come here" Ethan swivelled the frail girl around and embraced her in a warm, meaningful hug. She surprisingly hugged back but was cut off by the horrible feeling coming back again.
Meanwhile, the others heard her and wanted to see if she was ok. They watched as her frail body went around Ethan's well built one. She sat there helpless and the guys really didn't understand because she only ate a crumb. They were scared for her. It felt like the right thing to be.