Dear diary,
At school people made fun of me for the way I dress and the way I talk. The reason I am like that is that my family have a little money and I talk like that because I can. Everyday I have to go through this.
If I leave now will it make everyone happy. At least their wishes for me to lose weight is coming true. I just need to lose more, in the morning my mom tried to shove food down my throat. I threw it back up later in the day. Now back of how my day went. Why do people think that I'm doing this for attention that's not the reason. If they knew what goes through my head they will understand or maybe pity me.
During gym some kids stole all my belongings it was hilarious note the sarcasm. They beat me up today too lets not forget that. My whole life it has been like that, why can't I just defend myself. I'm just a waste living on this earth and my parents make it obvious that I'm just a burden to them. So I just do what I normally do to ignore everyone, play music really loud. Does everyone think I'm stupid? Okay maybe I am but that's my problem not theirs.
We had new student today her name was Xylene, she was pretty too maybe that's why I spaced out. She seems like she didn't care about what they people said about her, but somehow I could tell it did. That's all can say about her, but the one thing that i notice was that she kept staring at me. I just pretended I did not notice her, if she wants to make fun of me she can no teacher cares anyway.
Well she did talk to me just to pity me. Can you believe that? Do I look like I need a persons pity? All they tell me is that its going to be okay. That its just a phase. How I wish it was true, but no one knows anything about me just my name.
I'll finish telling you how my day went. Until next time. That is if I'm not dead get it. I need help, oh well what can I do.
- Zhang Yixing ;-;
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Outcast (Zhang Yixing)
FanfictionHe was known as the weirdo, loser etc. He tried to fit in he thought he was alone. Yixing suffers from depression and anorexia. He thought he had no one until she came along but not everyone gets a happy ending do they? Live the life of Zhang...
