Dear diary,
Don't you have day you want to cry or get all your emotion out. That is me everyday but today it is worse than what I expected. Since I have no one to talk to there is no way for me to let all my emotion outs.
I'm still in the hospital. I couldn't write yesterday because the doctor and nurses told me to take a break. If I continue writing about my emotions they say that its bad for my mental health. It actually helps me feel better, I would rather write my feelings than keeping them in. They want me to see a therapist, but what's the point of it they won't care about my problems. They just are getting paid to pretended to care about my emotional state. I won't be leaving the hospital because I'm ¨anorexic¨ which is a lie I'm healthy,
Xylene visited me today she ¨cried¨ because I'm getting worse. She thinks that I would treat her the same after I found out that she hates my gut. Why does she think she can pretended to care about me. Se knows my feelings for her yet she still pretends to not know about it. Everything is making me go crazy. Can't I just die already? No one needs me anyway, maybe I can sleep peacefully knowing that everyone will be happy without me.
I feel like you guys are tired of reading about my stupid life, but you guys are the only ones I can trust. I know you guys won't back stab me and make fun of me. I feel like you readings this are my only family, but no mater what you still can't save me.
Love You Guys, Until we meet again ;-;
- Zhang Yixing
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Outcast (Zhang Yixing)
FanfictionHe was known as the weirdo, loser etc. He tried to fit in he thought he was alone. Yixing suffers from depression and anorexia. He thought he had no one until she came along but not everyone gets a happy ending do they? Live the life of Zhang...
