Dear diary,
I just got home from the hospital I had to go because they needed to check on me. I think they are figuring out that I still won't eat, or that I gave up on everything. I mean they aren't wrong but I think they don't want to believe it.
Xylene forced me to be her fake boyfriend today, why, I have no idea. I think she told everyone that I kept begging her to date me or something. Now everyone thinks she pities me. I do not need anyone's pity or for them to pretend to care.
I feel like I'm getting off topic. Well what can I say I have a lot of things I want to write about. Anyway, now the whole school make even more fun of me because of what did. I wonder if she feels any type of regret when she makes fun of me.
I hope the day I'm gone that she regrets hurting me emotionally and physically. I know that she is going to feel guilty for hurt me and that she shouldn't have done that. I don't wish anything bad to happen to her, but day she will feel the way I felt when she made fun of me. The day I die is the day everyone is going to make her feel guilty for killing me.
Its not her fault I killed myself maybe it will be. But I feel like everyone will make her suffer the same way I did. I already decide the day I'm doing it. I won't tell you when just yet. I still have to tell my whole story and how it led to that decision.
Goodbye for now.
-Zhang Yixing
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Outcast (Zhang Yixing)
FanfictionHe was known as the weirdo, loser etc. He tried to fit in he thought he was alone. Yixing suffers from depression and anorexia. He thought he had no one until she came along but not everyone gets a happy ending do they? Live the life of Zhang...
