How to be a heartbreaker

Part 3 Chapter 6

We were able to text until he got to post. I didn't want to tell him bye. I didn't want to see my IMessage get sent as a text message. When that happened I knew his phone had been taken.

I remember specifically one thing he said to me.

He said I had 6 months to think about whether or not I'd tell him yes when he asked me to marry him.

You see, Sam is in the Reserves. So how that works is he has 12 weeks of basic training and then 17 weeks of AIT Job Training. So if you can math, that means he wouldn't be home until the end of June. Which meant when he got back, I'd have a newborn child.

Atleast with AIT he's allowed to have his cell phone.

The first week was really hard. I wrote him letters everyday and patiently waited to get one in return. It never came and it freaked me out.

I started thinking about the bad things.

What if he wasn't serious?

Did he really love me?

Was I stupid?

Finally it came.

All 20 pages of that letter.

I cried and cried. My eyes hurt and my mom thought I was hurt.

No mom, I was just emotional.

My first phone call from him was 1/15/17 at 3:19 pm and it only lasted 11 minutes. I cried as soon as I picked up that phone. He cried too. He told me he loved me so many times.

Since then it's basically been the same. The past few Sundays I've gotten a phone call from him. I can't tell you how nice it is to hear his voice.

I get letters randomly.

He never fails to start it off with a "Good Morning/Afternoon beautiful." He never fails to tell me he loves me and how much he can't wait for "our" child to get here so we can start making one of our own.

Dudes crazy. Bailynn will have to be atleast 3 and potty trained before I think of having another baby.

I know in reality he's just telling me he's deprived of sex, but shoot so am I.

When I got approved to go see him February 16th, I cried. I also booked my hotel room.

I'm nervous about a few things now.

1. Making that 6 hour drive

2. Getting into that army post

3. Seeing him.

Why am I nervous about seeing him? I mean when he left, I barely had a baby bump. Now I'm 6 months pregnant and she isn't invisible anymore. My biggest fear is he's gonna pull a Tyler and leave.

But then I realize I can't keep comparing him to Tyler.

Samuel is different. I should've realized that a while ago, but I didn't.

I hate that I can't see my own boyfriend on Valentines Day and spend our first one together, but I know I'll see him that next day.

Right now, I'm waiting on another letter to come in the mail and I'm getting slightly impatient.

The last one really got me in the heart.

He told me to send him pictures of rings. We've talked about getting married but I didn't think we were serious. I'm guessing he was.

I'm ending this story here.

I love my Samuel. I love him more than anything. No he isn't Tyler. That's because he's better than him in so many ways.

I'm not ending this story because our relationship is ending.

Oh no.

I'm ending it because it's just now beginning and still being written ❤.

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So this is the end of it all.

It's been a journey.

I hope this one is forever.

-Kayla