It Ends with Goodbye◇Drew Dirksen (Sequel to It Starts with Hello)

Chapter Nineteen.

SONG OF THE CHAPTER: BACK TO YOU...because well first it relates to this relationship so much and I am so damn proud of Louis. 

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Chapter Nineteen.

Drew

The summer mixes well with what happens during the summer. The hot beaches. The sunny days ,you can go out and do stuff, the way it slowly but gradually goes to colder days. And that six pack you were having for so long suddenly disappears. Non existent. 

Kind of like love. That summer love your grandma or grandpa may tell you about is true. It comes. And guess what...It goes. 

But some where. Deep down in my chest and some where in my mind that I can't even and begin to know of is that love I had with Violet. it has to still be there. It can't just grow legs and walk. That's what children do. 

Apparently we were children in love. She can't be in love with that guy could she? Is he better than me? Could he be bigger and better than me? Is she that ignorant to love two guys at once? Could you love two guys at once?

No. She showed me better than that. She showed me to think better than that. But here I am. 

Thinking of it again. Thinking of the stupid circumstance I am in. For what it feels like the sixth time in the last hour. 

It doesn't help that this day has gone worse than any other day this week. My tires getting slashed. 

Yeah that should go down in the books. And to top it off Violet posted another selfie with him. Grr. 

"Man what's with the burnt out and grossed face?" Austin comes up behind me and grabs my shoulder, "I mean I know the tires are totally cut out. But we can just rent a car to go there. We can call your parents on our way back to tell them what happened. We can just keep the car-"

"Yeah here in storage, I thought we already established that," I interrupt him and walk away from it all. I need head space. I need to eat something or just sleep. I don't know. I just need time to myself and think. No skateboards. No swimming pools. Nothing. And I quit taking....

I hear Levi's muffled voice to Austin, "what's up his butt?"

"Probably that time of month again," Austin says. 

I shake my head and put my hands in my pockets. 

Nate chimes in, "wait doesn't tampons go-"

Levi laughs out loud, "dude we were kidding."

"And besides Drew is a guy." I look over and Austin looks at me. It's as if he can sense something is wrong with me but doesn't want to say it. He nods at me and I turn back around. 

He can't know what I am feeling. What I am feeling is wrong. I shouldn't feel like hating life now. I shouldn't feel like Violet made a wrong choice and she will get hurt. I shouldn't feel like going to Idaho all by myself just to kick Tate in his small little ball sack he probably has. 

No. I should feel happy for her. She's my friend right? She always will be. Always will be. Besides we have to remember who broke up with who here right?

I get to the corner of the car dealer ship and I sit on the concrete ledge. I take them out of my pocket. Yes. I bought a pack. A pack of cigarettes. I promised myself I would stop. I promised myself I wouldn't ever since the day that random dude named George gave me one. But this time is different.