" Hi Baby, Good Morning! Its time for you to wake up, your gonna be late for school"
" Baby please wake up"
" I love you Baby Always and Forever 😘😘"
Nagising ako sa voice recording niya na ginawa kong alarm tone, It's been a year and a half but the pain still linger in my body, Every space of our condo reminds me of her, How she laugh for no reason, How she cook my favorite food and How she made me fall for her without doing anything special. Its been a year and a half but i still cant let her go, I still cant accept the fact that she's gone in my life.. Few minutes later i found my self crying just by looking at her picture cause for the Nth time i remember her, I remember my Baby, My BEA...
" Mads lika na, imemeet pa natin yung... Maddie! hell why are you crying?!" Si Jho Bea's bestfriend siya yung tumutulong sakin simula nung nawala si Bea...
"Wala to Beh, na puwing lang ako, teka malikigi lang ako sabay na tayo papuntang school"
Papunta na kame sa school ngayon para i-meet yung mga rookies ng team, well wala ko sa condition, palagi akong pinapagalitan ni Coach dahil wala daw ang focus ko sa game at kung hindi ko pa daw pagbubutihin baka aliain niya muna ko sa team, How can i go on kung iniwan ako ng taong dahilan kaya ko sumali sa Volleyball team ng school? Nagstart magpakilala ung mga rookies binati din namin sila and nagstart na ng training well kilala si Coach bilang terror kaya patayan talaga pero base on my feeling patay na ko namanhid na nga katawan ko eh. Pagtapos ng training pinatawag ako ni Coach sinabi niyang tumigil muna ko pumayag na lang ako siguro kailangan ko munang magmove on from her...
Nakauwe ako sa condo, feeling numb as ever nakita kong nagaaral si Jho kaya dumiretcho na lang ako sa kwarto ko at saktong pagsara ng pinto lahat ng nararamdaman ko unti unting kumawala sakin umagos ang masaganang luha na kanina ko pa gustong ilabas... The weak Maddie came out in an instant at kasabay nito ang pagpasok ni Jho
" Siya na naman ba Beh? It's been a year and a half already dont you think na its time to let her go completely? para lahat tayo makamoveon na sa kanya"
Lalo lang akong napaiyak sa sinabi ni Jho I cried my heart out hanggang mapagod ako at makatulog laging ganun ang nangyayari sakin, I woke up 3 in the morning and i quickly search for my phone and when i found it may note na nakalagay dito.
" I know you'll wake at 3, so i prepare you some snacks since di ka kumaen kagabe, Mads dont be too hard on yourself ayt? pagnalaman niya yan baka magalit yun sakin kase di kita inaalagaan, Matulog ka na pagtapos mong basahin ung messages niyo sa isat-isa ha?"
XOXO-JHO😊
Jho know's my usual routine tinanggal ko yung note at binuksan yung phone ko para basahin yung huli convo namin
FROM BEIBY 💙
Feb 6 20xx
" Hi baby, Im here sa bahay baka i cant go home tonight so dont wait for me na okay? By the way eat your dinner i cook that for you reheat mo na lang Iloveyou 😘"
"Why 😭 you know naman na i cant sleep without you diba? I have to cry my heart out para lang dun though thanks for my dinner kahit late na masarap pa din 😁"
" Mom's been bugging me kase to stay here daw kahit tonight lang daw, I said yes na since minsan lang, Oops Baby dont cry, i promise pag nakasurvive ka tonight without crying a single tear falling from your eyes, Will go to PARIS 🗼 on summer break so deal?"
" Haha 😂 you know me so well Baby, everytime na di ka matutulog dito ganyan sinasabi mo since summer break is near ill make that deal kase i wanna do something special with you sa Paris!"
" I promise i would, kelan ko ba binigo ang baby ko? well its late dont you think its time for us to rest?"
" Alright lets sleep na I love You Bea 😘"
" Ill see you tomorrow Baby sleep well okay? I Love You always and FOREVER"
Just by reading this message muling tumulo yung mga luha ko naguunahan yung masasaganang likido na tumulo, the last message she has on her phone was ours Exactly 12 am Febuary 7 Bea die, Bea left without even saying a single goodbye on the exact date of my 19th birthday she left 😭, At first akala ko prank lang nila ni Jho coz they always like to do that pero Tita Det call me 35 minutes pagtapos kong mareceive yung last text niya para sabihing wala na nga si Bea na namatay na siya, Kaya hindi daw umuwe si Bea sa condo that night ay dahil nasa ospital na siya and she's fighting for her dear life until the very end, Bea has an acute leukemia, She was 20 when she found out, i was her girlfriend back then pero she keep it a secret from me and now im regretting everyday nagsisisi akong wala na siya sakin...
6 MONTHS HAVE PASSED 🌅
I woke up earlier than usual, Today's the 2nd year and today's alsi my 21st Birthday. Nagluto ako at nagayos, two consecutive year ko ng ginagawa to i celebrate my birthday with her since death anniversary niya din ito, I was on my way when i received a video message from Jho..
" Okay na ba Beh? ayusin mo yung pagvivideo ha nakakahiya kay Baby kung panget"
" Oo oh yan okay na kaya mo yan Beh! 😂😂"
" I come to you and hold you, so you will see the love i give cause you still hold the key, Every single day you always act this way for how many time i told you I LOVE YOU for that is all i know, Ill never go oh far away from you even the sky will tell you that i need you so for this is all i know ill never go far away from you 😅,
Hi Baby i know you didnt expect me to do this coz i always told you na its so cheesy, corny or baduy but it hit me some people tend to do this to show how much someone mean to them, Baby im doing this coz you really mean a lot to me that ill do anything to make you happy because i love you. I just wanna say Happy Birthday Baby and i hope by the time your watching this video you'll be ready to let me go, Im sorry if i kept it from you ayoko lang na mapabayaan mo yung sarili mo dahil sakin dont you worry about letting me go coz i plan to never let you go i promise to love Always and FOREVER, Ill be watching you from above Baby I love you 😘"
Napahinto ako sa gate ng sementeryo para ilabas yung luha na kanina pang gustong kumawala sakin, Bea sing me a song, She never do something like it dahil korny daw o kaya nahihiya siya, But she did it just for me 😭 dumiretcho ako sa puntod niya after watching the video its clear to me I have to hold on and move on at the same time Move on from the pain and hold on to the memory...
ISABEL BEATRIZ P. DE LEON
AUGUST 2 1996- FEBUARY 7 20XX
" Hi Baby, its been 2 years but still it feels like yesterday i know your watching me wherever you are and im a mess but i want you to know that i will never let you go that easily we promise to love each other always and forever right? *SOB* And i want to keep that promise Baby forever and always, I really miss you so much Bea I love You"
