" We demand closure as though our lives were put together as neatly as novels, but the fact of the matter is they’re not. In real life, relationships are messy and poorly written, ending too early or too late, and sometimes in the middle of a sentence."
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Some of us thinks that our life is like a story with always a happy ending, Well I too once think that my life was like that when i met her 7 years ago in the campus gym she was the girl from Davao that flew all the way to Manila to go to her dream school, play her favorite sport and to graduate with flying colors, We were batchmates so we always stick together along side with 2 other people who turnout to be my friends as the years go by, The girl from Davao, is Maddie...
Madeleine Yrenea Madayag.
As the days goes by i start to know her even more we became best of friends, and I didnt like her at first because my eyes was too focused on someone else, but she didn't care at all, even though i know she secretly have feelings for me, she even supported me when i asked her to help me ask that someone to be my girlfriend, fortunately Jho said yes, and I was the happiest girl and i was really grateful with Maddie she didnt judge me at all. But as cliché as this may sound one faithful day. i began to uncover my true feelings for Maddie
My true feelings
On a torn paper
Are getting clear
somethin' bout you
It was the start of second semester and it's volleyball season, Me, Maddie and Jho both belong to the same team, we always hang out with each other, But suddenly my feelings for Jho was slowly fading away. Maybe because after practice she would go to her class or she have some things she have to do, I understand that we dont have the same course so i'm always stuck with Maddie. That's when things fucked up. We were at UPTC watching a movie then suddenly we both saw Jho with someone else, And if i remember it correctly it was Nico the golfer. I should feel mad at Jho for cheating behind my back but surprisingly i felt nothing maybe because Maddie was trying to calm me with all her might.
Yeah you look like me but different somehow
I wonder if you feel the way as I do
There's no hope but I expect it
After a day, a month and a year,
We would live different lives
Jho and I broke up after that day she said that Nico was her first love and she really love him so i set hsr free, at least she was honest with me about it and i didnt have any regret of letting her go. And after that she decide to forego her last playing year so Maddie and I became the super seniors the good cop, bad cop and that's when i realize that i'm falling for her my relationship with Jho lasted for 3 years but Maddie was there since Day 1 she was like my soul mate. but i got scared, scared to lose what we have while i was dating Jho Maddie also dated someone else her name was Zoe but it didn't last because of their busy schedule. When i became single i was so out of focus because someone was trying to win her heart...
No I'm not
I don't think it'll be easy for me
You still fill my days
No not yet
I'm repeating like a fool
I can't hold the words lingering on my lips
It's not fine
Ah ah ah ah it's not fine
I lose my shit when Maddie allow that guy to court but who am i to stop her right? she's probably over me, and so all i do was to watch her from afar, i never confess this feelings that i had for her ever since Maddie allow Zolo to court her she became distant to me we barely interact and slowly im losing the only person that i thought would always be there for me.
