" Mom look at Syd, she texted me saying she like someone daw but everytime na inaaway siya she keeps on seeking for my comfort"
" Deans, She's your friend naman diba? that's natural"
" Mom, I have my own problems too"
" Pero you like her tama? Ma. Deanna Izabella M. Micek i am your mother kaya alam ko yan"
" Yes Mom, and it hurts me everytime she cries when some guy hurt her, I wanted to tell her that im here that i will love her the way she deserve it pero ayokong masira friendship namin"
" Wel let me tell you a story about a girl who regrets everything because she didnt tell her bestfriend that she love her"
( Bali story telling lang to okay? wala lang na inspire lang ako sa isang kwento online hehehe and some lines are not mine)
It all started when I was 7 years old. While I was playing outside our farm in Davao, it was the first day of summer when I met a girl. She was this average kind of girl who would teased you and then you chased her and beat her up. She was a very bully kind of playmate but it was fun since i finally have someone who can play with me, It was like the turning point of my boring summer.. After that first meeting in which I beat her up we kept on meeting each other and play together at the fence of the farm. and it lasted for a long while since every summer break.We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together playing having fun some sort of stuff you know the kids thing..I would tell her all my secrets. and she was very quiet, she would just listen to what I had to say. So I find her easy to talk to and I could talk to her about everything literally everything.
My family decided to move to Manila so that i can study for high school, and who would have thought that we are on the same school? but in school we had separate friends i dont know pero parang she didnt know me, but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school kapitbahay ko pala sila so im fine with it na din. The one day I said to her that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. nadaan kase ako sa mabulaklak na salita but all she did was to comfort me and said everything would be okay. she gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of her as a real friend a best friend material. But I knew that there was something else about her that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a bestfriend kinda thing that I was feeling.
All throughout high school and even through graduation we're always together di mo kame mapaghihiwalay i even asked my parents na maging classmate ko siya if ever and of course I thought of it as being friends lang. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently towards her parang im slowly falling for her lam niyo un?. On graduation night kahit na may kanya kanyang date, gusto ko before the night ends makasayaw ko siya pwede naman un diba two girls doing waltz, after our mini prom umuwe kame she even give me a lift, pero bago ko bumaba sabi ko magkita kame dun sa tree house niya dahil gusto ko siyang makausap.. and i was thinking that, This is it, ito na ung chance para masabi ko na din na Mahal ko si Bea, nagbihis ako agad pagkatapos at dumiretcho ko sa tree house and all I did was to sit there with her enjoying the stars and talking about what we are going to do since were entering college na. I looked into her eyes and listened to her talk about what her dream was. she wanted to pursue Volleyball bata pa lang kase siya hilig na niya un, Nagkwento din siya tungkol sa buhay pagaasawa kung paano niya gagawin ang lahat mapasaya lang ang magiging pamilya niya, then she blurted out of the blue that she was gay, while me?? All I could do was to tell her my dream and cuddle next to her, I went home after because i was hurting, Dahil nawalan ako ng lakas ng loob na sabihin sa kanya na gusto ko siya, na mahal ko na siya pero pinangunahan ako ng takot at sinabi ko sa sarili ko "I will let my feelings go but i also remainded myself that someday I would tell her just how I felt towards her.
