Forever Dead (On Hold)

Chapter Forty Two

Kat's P.O.V

The son of a fucking bitch, who the fuck does he think he is?

 I began to mutter under my breath, cursing and swearing at Ed who wasn't at my side anymore. I would be lying if I was totally fine about being alone. I can live on my own but it just felt... lonely without him. I missed his annoyingly sexy voice and how we bicker constantly. It's never an argument since it is only a small conversation on our disagreements.

It doesn't matter anymore though, I lost myself in thought so I have no clue on where to go. I continued to mumble words, it was no longer of anger but of comfort. I needed Ed with me or even Alan at this point, I am so lonely.

"Kat?" I rapidly turned to face the noise. It went instantly and once more I felt alone. "Kat, where is Ed?" The voice called again, nerves were no longer an issue, and I trusted the voice and clung to the familiarity of it all.

"Kat, talk" Another called to me once again familiar. Was I hallucinating? I hope not, I needed my friends more than anything. "Please talk" The tears were forming in my eyes, but I refused to let them fall.

 At last the voices had a body and Eloise and Dylan their faces filled with concern at the look of my tear filled eyes. I wiped away my fears, I had someone with me and it was two of the people I trusted most.

I gave both a weak smile trying to hide my early emotions. "Hey guys" I called cheerfully hoping they believes the lie i was feeding them.

"What's wrong? Where's Ed?" Dylan asked, looking around me expecting him to run out from behind the corner. I shrugged my shoulders lazily, I won't lie about his whereabouts.

"Probably where I saw him last, answering as truthfully as I could. To be fair I had no clue where we were but I only wish I was still there.

"Where?" Eloise inquired as I proceeded to shrug. "Useful" She muttered under her breath. Now I regret leaving.

Ed's P.O.V

Where to start? Kat was never that easy to track down. Right now that was my main priority. She really thinks that I hate her but that's a lie, right now i can't stop thinking about her and feeling that something has happened to her.

I sigh heavily, what was I to do? My stress was caught on by Juliet. "Hey, we'll find her" I heard her sceptical voice hidden amongst her cheery voice. How was it that she felt so, upset and distressed at her disappearance, it didn't make any sense to me especially after her disappearing act.

"I guess, I'm just so worried that something has happened to her and it's all my fault because I've upset her" I didn't take a genius to work out that I'd pissed her off. Not purposely, I would never hurt her, she is my friend and the only one there for me after what happened to me.

"Don't blame yourself, she was the one that ran off, not you. She probably overreacted to whatever you were talking about" I only wish she was right, Kat wasn't overreacting, she had all right to be slightly upset with my behaviour. I know that of I was in her shoes, I would act in a similar way.

I took another deep breath in to collect my thoughts. I wasn't prepared to disagree with this woman, she seemed nice so I don't want to give off a bad impression unlike Kat. "We should probably go find her, No point standing here and worrying, right" I pulled a fake smile, it was an awful attempt but fake emotions don't make the world go round.

 I took the first shaky steps out the alley way, my mind flashing back to the time in the building where she was stood so close to me. The awkwardness it left didn't bother me in the slightest, all I could focus on was the blush that slowly crept across her face. It was adorable and I only wish that she knew I cared for her, maybe this would have never happened? Probably not, she was stubborn so nothing would have changed.

The walk through the streets was quiet, only the occasional sentence broke the silence. It wasn't awkward but a silence that I needed to calm me down through such a strange time.

 "So Ed, tell me about yourself" Juliet called out of the blue. I gave a simple shrug but I wasn't going to leave it at that.

"There's not much to me" I replies being simple and annoying. I stared at her in hope that she wouldn't ask me more about myself.

"Alright then, tell me about how you met your friend Kat" She called. I took a deep breath to calm down and think about it from the start.

"Well, Juliet" I began, it wasn't much of a story.

"Call me Julie" I nodded but complied with her request.

"Ok Julie, I all started when I was with my old friends, I found this random girl passed out on the side of the road, her hair and closed were singed while her skin was covered with burn. I instantly knew that she was a part of a recent fire and couldn't leave her to die. No one agreed that it was a good idea and told me that if I wanted to help her I could but they weren't sticking around to wait for her to turn. A day or so later this mysterious girl woke up she was probably confused about what happened to her, or thought she was dead. I don't blame her" I stopped for a breath and decided to examine Julie's facial expressions, she seemed intrigued by our story I only wish that Kat was here to tell I with me. "not much later we decided to leave, among the short bonding time I came across a guy, around Kat's age, she seemed over the moon at the sight of him but I wasn't so sure on him at first but as time went on I realised he was no problem, he cared deeply for Kat and wanted to keep her safe no matter what. Kat finally made it to her own group and we left shortly after for this city. I met my friends and I was distraught to find my girlfriend had been bit and also that she cheated on me with my best friend, I never really trusted anyone again" I said quietly, the truth hurt me more than anyone else, it's just not so easy. 

"Wow you two have a lot of history in such a short amount of time I guess" I nodded at her truthful statement. We did indeed.

A/N:

Hello my friends, I wrote this during school the last few days so sorry about any grammar or spelling mistakes.

I would have gotten this out sooner but I was ill and just couldn't be bothered to write anything, Hearthstone was more important because even if I fell asleep, nothing would really change whereas if I was writing I would lose my train of thought completely.

Anyway, thank you for reading my chapter :)

See Ya

Kat Xx