Forever Dead (On Hold)

Chapter Forty Five

Kat's P.O.V

"Ah, they have finally returned" Ed called, a slight purr in his voice as he spoke. I struggled to contain my laughs but couldn't hide the smile on my face. "What have you been doing?" I nearly gagged at his statement whereas Juliet blushed lightly. I knew that if I did do that, Juliet may have taken offence and I don’t want that to happen.

"Not what you’re thinking of" I called, taking a seat next to Dylan. "We should probably get out of here" I spoke up, calling to the group. Even though no one spoke up, I still got a bunch of strange looks. What, do they have a problem with my ideas of safety? There was no way that staying here would keep us living for much longer.

"You have gone mad" Charlotte spoke up. I turned to her, pushing her off her seat. Everyone laughed at her as she pushed off the ground and pushed me back, failing to tip me over. "Hey, what was that for?" I shrugged my shoulders smiling happily as I walked towards an abandoned building.

"Yeah I have" I joked, leaning in the door way to the building I was heading to. "But everyone get sleep, we all need to sleep. See you guys in the morning" I closed the door behind me, sinking to the floor. There was no doubt that sleep was not going to come to me tonight.

Alan's P.O.V

The noise ceased to stop, the continuous firing of bullets and shouting was beginning to bring out my nerves. "It's getting louder" Ryan called out from his lookout point. I turned to face him for a brief moment, letting my guard down for a brief moment. He was right and I wanted to leave, find Kat and get out of this fucking place. "We need to leave now, fuck scavenging. We're dead if we don't fucking leave" I looked at him, shocked. What about Kat?

"We'll find her later, right now we need to leave like Ryan said" Lamim called, I didn't realise I said it aloud but at least my question was answered even if I was still as anxious as ever. Fine, I guess, we will find Kat eventually so it's not too bad. I tried to convince myself to leave, it was of for the better, and Kat is a strong person and can get away from almost anything. She will find her way out. I decided to tag along, feeling selfish, I wanted to get out alive, screw everyone else.

Another set of rounds were fired at us, the bullet lodged in my side started to unlodge from my flesh and dig into my side, causing me agony. “Fuck” I whispered under my breath; bring a hand to my side and bringing it away to see my hand covered in blood. “Fuck, this isn’t good” I muttered under my breath, placing my hand back on my side to stop the bleeding. If I was going to make it through we need to find some kind of medical equipment so I can get this stupid fucking bullet out my side. Lamim turned around for a moment to check on me since I was lagging behind everyone else.

“Fuck, man down!” He yelled to Ryan who stopped in the middle of the group just to come back to me. Everyone just carried on knowing that he would be able to catch up easily. “Alan what happened?” He called, removing the hand from my hip.

“What does it fucking look like? I’ve been shot you idiot” I growled at him, biting down on my tongue to stop my screams. “We need to get something to get this stupid thing out of me, it’s driving me insane” Ryan nodded and so did Lamim.

“You need to get the group out of the city, where it is safe. I’ll help Alan” Lamim nodded, there was a hint of confusion in his eyes but he still followed orders, running after the group. “Kat better like you a lot either you are dead” I chuckled at his statement as he pulled me through the streets.

Ed's P.O.V

Kat left quickly, hiding inside one of the buildings and locking the door behind her, there was no way I was going to disturb her. I could tell that she just needed the space hence why she left for the alley. But her reply was what baffled me. Either she meant it in a jokey kind of way or she was dead serious. Either way she didn’t seem very happy, well it was more of a comfort irritation than depression. Something has ticked her off and I’m not about to find out.

I decided it was for the best if I got some sleep, I needed to be alert for tomorrow since we needed all the supplies we could get. Today wasn’t the greatest start even though we met up with Juliet, we were out of everything. I led down in the room I was in, Dylan was on the other side, sleeping happily whilst I was left to stare at the ceiling. How can he sleep at a time like this? My stomach is moaning at me to get food, stopping me from getting any sleep whilst my mind stirs on the subject of Kat, something is clearly bugging her.

I sat up, knowing fully well that I wasn’t going to get sleep any time soon. I walked over to the door where I saw light from outside. I slowly opened the door, cautious of who could be outside and wary in case they were hostile. To my relief and confusion it was Kat, sat beside a small campfire, hugging herself as she shivered. I walked over to her, knowing that she could do with the company to a) talk to and b) keep warm.

“Hey” I called quietly, settling myself down beside her. The ground wasn’t comfortable but I would rather sit there than awkwardly stand. “Why are you awake?” I asked casually; just make simple conversation in times of need. Nothing ever goes wrong there.

“Couldn’t sleep” She called quietly, avoiding my gaze and staring into the dancing flames that were heating us. “What about you”  I shrugged my shoulders, there were multiple reasons to why I couldn’t sleep but neither were appropriate for this time.

“Same” I replied simply, copying her movements by staring at the fire. It was beautiful and mesmerising.

“Why did you go into the fire that day?” I called out of the blue, looking at Kat in hope that she would answer. She turned her head, tears in her eyes but simply shrugged her shoulders. “You’ve told me but it just seems strange, you had so many different options available yet you decided to rick your life, accepting your imminent death. It just doesn’t add up” She sighed heavily and shrugged again, staring into the heart of the fire once more.

“I don’t know alright. I acted upon instinct and I felt that at that moment my life was worthless. Nobody needed a blonde girl that was always causing some kind of problem, if it’s making enemies, bringing new people on board when we are struggling to get by or simply by being unconscious. My death would have been mourned but I was just a distraction. No one notices me anyway” I shook my head, wrapping my arm around her shoulder pulling her into a hug. She grasped at my t-shirt, I could tell she was on the verge of crying no matter what was going to happen. All she needed was someone there so she could cry on their shoulder.