Loving Someone

What a familiar face (23)

Chapter 23: "What a familiar face" - Settle Down, The 1975

Kat's POV:

When Matty left to meet another group of kids at the shop, I left Kiera and Linsta alone.

I was walking towards the car when I saw him.

Those eyes.

Those blue, electrifying eyes that leaves me in shock.

I stood frozen, gaping stupidly at him.

Unconsciously I was walking towards him even though my brain keeps telling me to go back.

My heart sped up and I was sweating.

What's he doing here?

He cocks his head and says, "Why look so surprised Kit Kat?", he smirks, "I love The 1975 just as much as you... in fact that band was the thing that brought us together".

I gulp, refusing to look into his eyes. "There's no us", I say through clench teeth.

"Kat", he whispers as he steps forward.

I immediately took a step back. My vision was blurry from the tears that were about to fall. "I told you I don't want to see you. Do you not know what that means? It means stay away! It means that there's no way you can redeem yourself! We had this talk so many times, how many more words can I say until you understand?".

"Until you tell me the truth", he says, confidently. I look up to see his fierce eyes.

I make a face at him. "What truth? What are you talking about?".

"I just want an honest answer. Then I will leave. You agree?", he asks.

I nod my head, already regretting it.

His eyes soften and he says softly, "Did you ever love me?".

My eyes widen.

My heart stops as I try to find an answer.

But I already know it.

Of course, a part of me would always love him. I mean he was my best friend and I began developing a deep feeling towards him. No matter what, you won't be able to forget your first crush or the first time you actually felt love. I cannot deny he made me feel that. But I can't deny he was the main reason for my brother's death.

I wasn't ready to say 'yes' nor I was ready to say 'no'. If I say yes, he would try to work things out. And as much as I want to be friends with him, after everything we went through, I can't. If I said 'no', my voice would crack and it wouldn't sound very convincing. So, instead, I did the only thing I thought of.

I laugh at him.

Yep, I fake a loud laugh, you would have thought my best friend made the funniest joke ever.

He looks at me with a broken kind of expression and even though it did something to my heart, I composed myself, stop laughing and look straight at him.

"I can't believe that's what you're most concerned about".

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3/13/17

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