His turn to fall

Chapter 37

Kats POV

I took a deep breath and started talking. I needed to get it out and as long as Jamie stayed with me I would be fine.

"It all started when I was younger. I... I didn't grow up alone. I had a brother. He was older than me and he was my best friend..."

Jamie frowned and said, "What do you mean had?"

I felt tears flow down my cheeks as I remembered Noah. "He... he died. He killed himself..." I closed my eyes and swallowed before continuing.

"...and... I watched it happen." I let out a sob as several tears fell. "I remember he walked into a room. I followed him since I was only about four at the time. I saw the blade. I asked him what it was for... he said that it took away the pain. I didn't think anything of it. He started writing on a piece of paper... he told me that I had to show it to mom and dad later. He gave me a hug and a kiss on the forehead. Then he told me to leave but I didn't want to so I pretended to leave and hid behind a table... he started to cut himself. I saw the blood and I saw him as he kept going... after a few I started crying and yelled at him to stop hurting himself. He turned but he had already cut too deep."

I sobbed at the memory of my 16 year old brother, covered in blood. I took a deep breath and said, "I held him in my arms as he died. I can still see him telling me that I would live happy and that I wouldn't ever do what he did. He told me that he loved me and that I shouldn't have stayed to watch but that I had to be strong for the both of us... he told me to tell mom and dad that he was sorry and that he loved them. I cried for so long. My parents don't ever talk about him... it's like Noah vanished from our lives. My little sister doesn't know about Noah. I miss him so much, Jamie."

He pulled me into a hug and said, "You have me. I might not be Noah but I'm hear and I love you." I smiled sadly and said, "He would have liked you. He was always talking about how he wanted to be there when I got married and how he would hurt anyone who hurt me."

I let out a laugh. "I didn't think that he would actually never get the chance to see it happen..." I snuggled into Jamie as he traced patterns into my back.

"Jamie, will you sing for me?" I asked and I felt him tense a bit but he started singing anyway. I loved his voice and as he sung I felt my eyelids droop and sleep take over. I felt all of my sorrow lifted from my shoulders that night. I felt like I was going to have that happy ending that Noah had wanted me to have.

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