Chapter 8 – Alex
The light was dimmed, Jack was comfortably lying in my bed, covered with my blanket, sleeping. I had to do it, I couldn't stop myself. I kissed his lips. Soft, quick kiss, hoping Jack didn't feel anything. And if he did, I hope he thinks he was dreaming. I don't know how he'd react, he probably wouldn't be disgusted, at least I think so. But it would make things between us very very weird, so I kept telling myself that it can never happen again.
Later on, I couldn't fall asleep so I was just checking Tumblr on my phone and glanced at Jack here and there. It was only 8pm, so I let him sleep a little more, I know he's tired even though he doesn't look like he is. His dad was having a hard time at rehab and Jack spent days visiting him, participating in his therapies and meetings so he'd fall into it. He did eventually, but Jack was drained of his energy. His spark was beginning to fade. I think I might've lit it again when he saw his present because I know how much he loves playing. Minutes later, he moved, turned towards me and put his hands around my waist. He kept sleeping. I was boiling inside. I'd give anything to kiss him right now, to pull him closer, to make him mine and keep it that way forever. But him just laying there was the best moment in my life so far. All this time I've had a crush on him, I admired him from far away and now he is this close. I was thankful for that. Even though me and Jack are just friends, I understand all those couples now. I get how they feel these butterflies and warm feeling inside.
With all those warm thoughts in my head I must have dozed off. I felt someone poking my cheek gently.
''Alex.'' He whispered. ''Wake up.''
I opened my eyes and saw his face, close to mine. My heart was racing as I was watching his lips move.
''I'm gonna go, it's like almost 10. Pick you up tomorrow?''
I nodded. ''7:30?''
''You got it Lexy, see you tomorrow... and thanks again for the present, it's the greatest, best thing I've gotten.'' He said.
''You're very welcome. See you tomorrow.''
He then leaned over for a hug and after a few seconds of awkward staring he picked up his guitar case, waved and smiled at me again, and left.
I rolled back to bed with a warm feeling inside my chest. I was head over heels for him.
I woke up at 7am, got up and started getting ready. As I was fixing my hair I glanced at Blink 182 concert tickets that were taped to the edge of the mirror. It brought a smile to my face. I've wanted to see them for years and now Jack brings this to me as a gift, I was really happy. He said I can bring whoever I want. Silly goose, of course I'm gonna bring him, I wouldn't want anyone else. The show is tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited.
I just took an apple and went to the driveway to wait for Jack. A minute later he arrived and we drove off to school. I could notice he was a bit off.
''You alright?'' I asked.
''Yeah, I'm alright, just slept kinda shitty. How are you?'' He replied with a smile. Even though he didn't feel very good at times, he always looked happy, his smile rarely left his face.
''I'm okay. Looking forward to the show tomorrow, you know.''
''Cool, look... I have to talk to you about something.'' He said. I froze. Oh no, it's gonna be about the kiss, shit shit shit! I was hoping he wouldn't mention that.
''Okay, what's it about?'' I tried to play cool.
''It's about yesterday, when we were at your house.'' Holy shit!
''Okay...''
''I had a weird dream.''
''Okay, you wanna tell me about it?'' I wasn't sure what he was trying to say. Ah who am I kidding, of course I immediately knew what it's about.
''I don't know man, I had this weird feeling. I dreamt that you, well... you know, kissed me.''
I think I blushed, not pink or red, it was probably purple again.
''Oh, umm, alright... why... whoa... some dreams, huh?'' This is my weakness, I can't really hide this kind of stuff well... and I'm very bad at lying. I've always been such a sincere person, it's really hard for me to pretend otherwise.
''What's weird is, I actually felt... uhm, sorta okay about it... and I never felt okay about it. I mean, I don't even know why I'm telling you this.'' I was hoping he wouldn't be grossed out or anything, I'd be really hurt.
''No, no, it's alright, explain please. No big deal, really.''
''I don't have anything against anyone, I know people of all sexual preferences, I support them if they're happy, it's just... me, well I haven't really thought in that direction, at least not when it came to me. If you know what I mean.''
''Yeah, I do.'' I felt the heat filling up my face.
''Do you feel okay when it comes to you?'' Uh-oh, the question.
''Well, I think I kinda don't care so, I guess I feel okay, that's not a problem, is it?''
''No no, I just... We're friends and I think I can tell you this kind of stuff... I mean we've been through some shit together. I don't mind at all. I just wanted to share it with you... I know it was only a dream, but...'' He looked so confused. I've never seen him like this. And I guess I kind of told him I'm into guys... well I'm glad it was so spontaneous.
''It's alright Jack, I appreciate you talking to me about all kinds of stuff, I won't judge, keep going.''
''What I wanted to say is that I've never felt anything for a guy before, and If I would, I'd rather it was for you.''
I was speechless. I put my hand on his arm and smiled. He smiled back. He wasn't the only one confused. That I'm sure of.
[credit for the title goes to: One Direction]
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Hayran KurguCOMPLETED • After one of the biggest changes in his life so far, Alex starts senior year. On the first day of school he unintentionally draws attention to himself which makes Jack wonder what's hiding behind it. Little does he know that Alex has ha...
