Monday Jan 20.
Guilt sucks.
Today the counsler returned me to Mrs. Mariano's class. I guess she already got sick of me already. I was glad to go but at the same time I didn't want to be with the traitor.
The problem is I know deep down that she isn't a traitor. She's not a bad person & that makes hating her so much harder. She was more than likely trying to help me. She just went about it the wrong way.
Knowing this I already felt bad for actually letting her read that letter. To make matters worse she read it while I was there. I could barely take being in the same room as she struggled for composure.
But today was so much worse, because when I walked into the room her eyes lit up. She was actually glad to see me in class. She said so after class as she tried not to cry. She did in fact cry & I felt so bad that I hugged her.
She told me how much she appreciates me as a student & a overall person. For some reason she believes in me more than anyone I've ever known.
Thats the problem right there. Not that I hurt her feelings but the fact that I know I'll let her down. She believes in me & I don't deserve it.
~Meiko
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Novela JuvenilMieko is a not so average senior in high school. She has no friends, and her mom is barely ever around. Her life revolves around the stories she reads day after day. Her life literally feels like it is falling apart, and she finds comfort writing in...
