Mieko's journal

Mar 13

Thursday Mar 13.

I went back to school today. I was feeling better until people started asking where I was. It's no ones buisness. I don't get why people who never talk to me think they have the right to act concerned when things go wrong in my life.

My mom & her boyfriend were arrested. She's not in the mafia but they were both involved with something illegal. I didn't get all the details yet.

I do know that child endangerment was added to my moms list of charges.It bothers me that they are still considering me a child but everything is so crazy right now. Being called a child is the least of my problems. 

My moms  boyfriend is apparently a wanted rapist. 

Isn't that crazy?

I feel like my life fell apart in one day.

 I feel like I'm gonna fall apart soon.

But Josh is still here. He's my only constant. He's been staying in my house with me. He doesn't try to help me. He's just himself. That helps more than anything else I can imagine.

I have therapy soon. We're supposed to be talking about what happened before I was sent to treatment. 

I actually don't remember most of that night. I remember getting my notebook, sitting on the curve to write, & thats about it.

I'm glad my therapist gave me the idea to write out my feelings. I wouldv'e never been able to remember them if I hadn't written them down.

She also taught me to think of something positive or to hold my breathe when I'm about to have a panic attack. Josh is my positive thing & thinking about him really helps.

 For a therapist Ms. Jackson gives suprisingly good advice.

~Meiko